Chapter 6: Denial

The kiss was out of this world. Although it was my first, I knew that I would never have another kiss as good as that because there was something about Sky's lips, something about him. "Who are you?" he asked, his blue eyes piercing through mine for the truth. I wanted to look away but I could not. My gaze was stuck on him. "I… I…" I struggled desperately for what to say in that moment. Even the truth became hard to speak because of how much our kiss had confused me" "Tell me" his grip on my body increased just enough to not hurt but let me know that he had me, that I was in his arms. "I am trying" was all I could let out. All I knew at that time was the feel of Sky's lips on mine and how wonderful it was, how I wished we could kiss again. "Try harder" his grip tightened but it still did not feel like Kane's. While Kane's girp on me was painful and disgusting, Sky's was warm, passionate too. "I can't" I breathed out. I did not know what was happening to me, why just one kiss had numbed my brain, how Sky's hands on me felt so right. "Why?" he asked still staring at me with those eyes that brought butterflies to my stomach again, that gaze that I could not resist. "Because of your kiss" I blurted out and tried to cover my face in my hands. My face was flushed and I still could not look away from him. "Are you telling the truth?" Sky asked as he released me and tore his gaze from mine. Only then did I know that I had been holding my breath for all this time "Yes. Why do you keep asking me that?" I asked frustrated. I had not even had time to think of a good lie since I made my escape and everyone kept doubting me "I already told you that" Sky said moving back a couple of paces. He was slowly returning to the man I knew, the alpha who always had a cold look in his eyes. "Because of who you are?" ny voice was a little louder than I intended it to. I was so angry that this was how it would end after he had stolen my first kiss. "Yes" his voice was calm, a little more than a whisper. His eyes had lost the passion and intensity that were in them a while ago. "I don't even care about who you are" I said looking straight at him. I was so angry at myself for being foolish enough to be carried away by one kiss. "You don't?" his eyes grew wide at this and I almost laughed. If only his guards and subjects could see their ruthless alpha now, what would they think? "Yes I don't" I said, not backing down. I was not going to join the endless list of people who were scared of him. The alpha could try to do whatever he liked to me. "Okay" he breathed. I thought he was going to stare at me again but he did the opposite, avoiding my eyes as much as he could and I wondered why. "And I had no idea that you were the alpha back then" I said, also letting him know. "You just looked so familiar to the man in my dreams" "So you really dreamt of a man who looked like me?" he asked, his curiosity slipping out of the cold mask he always wore. "Yes I did" I said as the memory flashed before my eyes. The stranger lurking in the shadows and how he had told me that he loved me. "Maybe it was only a dream" "What if it was not just a dream? What if the man was real?" Sky asked, surprising me. He was staring at me with his blue eyes again. "Then I would really like to meet him" I spoke from the bottom of my heart. The man in my dreams could be my fated mate and I could let that go so easily. "What if you already met him?" Sky asked again, not bothering to hide his curiosity anymore. "I don't think I have" I replied honestly, although not knowing whether to add that I was not allowed to go out back when I stayed with my foster parents. "What if I was…" "Oh dear, where have you gone now?" madame Gertrude's voice interrupted Sky's sentence "I would be going to bed now dear. Come around soon" "You should go" Sky said to me. That would be the second time that we were interrupted in just a few hours. I really wanted to hear what he was going to say. "Yeah I should" I said before moving towards the door. Just at the entrance of the room, I turned around to spare him one more glance. "Oh dear, there you are" madame Gertrude said as soon as she saw me "I had been looking all through the rooms for you" "I am sorry Madame Gertrude, I was…" I looked at the direction of the room I was coming from and the other woman followed my gaze. "Oh that! Sadly that one could not be mine too" she smiled but there was something about that smile that spoke of some sadness. "Yes I noticed" I said simply as I walked closer to the other woman. Just then I realized just how late it was. The hour of twelve struck a couple of minutes ago. It was already my birthday. "Is anything bothering you child?" Madame Gertrude crossed the distance between us, her arms already taking mine and squeezing. "I'm fine" I lied and I think madame Gertrude caught on to the lie but she did not say anything. I was so thankful for her understanding. "Alright, I would be going to bed now" madame Gertrude announced after hugging me for the very last time that night. "Yes… me too" I said thinking of how long and tiring the day had been both physically and mentally "Thank you" "You really need to stop thanking me" madame Gertrude smiled as she stood up to leave me to my thoughts. "Ungrateful girl" my stepmother had always called me, stating that I should be more appreciative of the status of their daughter, a status that was in name only. I searched for something to distract me from all the pain I had to endure whenever I saw them celebrating Roxanne's birthday and completely ignoring mine A distraction came in the form of the memory of my first kiss, the one I shared with the alpha himself. If anyone heard this, I would be the new talk of the entire pack but I was not interested in that. There was something about Sky's eyes that set me at ease even when they were void of his true feelings. His eyes always seemed to be looking at me with some kind of ownership. Like I was his marked territory What I could not understand though was how that warned my heart instead of doing the opposite. I wanted him to own me.