Chapter 17

　　"Kayden please....don't hurt my baby." I cried as he grabbed me from my waist. I was really scared and I didn't want anything to happen to my baby. 　　"Tell me one reason not to hurt your baby." Kayden pushed me onto bed as he climbed top of me. I was covering my stomach from both of my hands but he grabbed my hands and pinned them above my head. 　　"He's your child Kayden.. why don't you believe me?.. think about it, did you ever use protection when you did that to me?" I shouted while crying. I just couldn't understand why he didn't believe me and I wanted him to think about everything. Doesn't he know that? A woman could get pregnant if a man didn't use protection? And I didn't even get birth control pills. So it's possible for me to get pregnant because he did it twice a month ago. 　　"Ha.. protection? Why do I have to use protection? I was fucking my fuck doll." Yes, I forgot that I was a play thing to him. It's okay Delilah be strong. I encouraged myself because I'm going to leave this place soon and there's no point in explaining things to him. 　　"Kayden.. thanks, you're really making me hate you." I looked at his eyes, they changed...suddenly a fear or something appeared in his eyes but it disappeared quickly. 　　"I don't fucking care Delilah, I'm giving you one day to abort the child or I'll fucking kill him by myself." Could he just bear to kill his own child? Yeah, as everyone told he's a ruthless and heartless man. I looked at his eyes, as always they are gorgeous. 　　"Delilah I'm asking you, Why him? Am I not enough?" What? What the hell is he talking about? I don't understand. 　　"Wh..what do you mean?" I asked him again because I couldn't get what he said to me but he didn't reply just stared at me and then my stomach. Suddenly the fear took over me as I looked at Kayden. Is he going to hurt the baby? Again Kayden's eyes fell on my face and let go of my hands. 　　He's the most handsome man I've ever seen but why? Just why is he acting like a beast? and why couldn't he just let go of the past? My eyes filled with tears as I thought about Kayden, I really loved him more than anything, he was the only man that stayed in my heart from the beginning. Without knowing I touched Kayden's face, my tears rolled down as my heart ached for him. I still love him and I will always love him but before that I should protect his child because if one day he realised the truth about the child and on that day the child wasn't there with us, guilt will definitely kill him so I didn't want to see that. I love him. So I should just leave. 　　Kayden was looking at me with his dangerous eyes but I loved him. So I will never blame him for doing this to me. I ran my fingers through his hair as he clenched his jaw. 　　"Kayden...I'm sorry." I cried as I hugged him. Tomorrow I'm going and I don't think I will come back. So I wanted to hug him and love him for the one last time. Kayden wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me so tightly. Then he kissed my head, I could feel his alcohol scent as I hugged him. I buried my face against his neck. I always loved his unique scent but it was mixed with alcohol scent. I recalled every memory I had with him but those are just only painful memories but I never cared if it's painful or happy. I always loved him and in the future I'll do the same. 　　"Delilah....don't...leave.. me... I feel like I'm losing you." Kayden spoke as he cupped my face, then he kissed my lips. He was really gentle, gentle as I always wanted him to be. This will be our last memory so I responded to his kiss. Kayden started to unbutton my blouse, I just let him. He looked at me as he kissed my forehead, then he buried his face against my neck and started to kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me and my baby because we're leaving him. He unbuckled his belt as I helped him to unbutton his shirt. I touched his body, he had a really good body that I always liked. I liked everything about him, I fell in love with him when I came to this house. It's been 12 years, I grew up in this house while looking at him and the same time my love for him also grew up with me but this is the end of everything between us. I looked at Kayden as he looked at me too, I smiled and kissed his cheek and he thrusted his hard length into me. 　　"Ah..." a little moan escaped from my mouth as he groaned against my neck. Then he started to move. I hugged him so tightly and buried my face against his neck. I really loved this man from the bottom of my heart. Kayden was really gentle... not like before. I could feel the pleasure because in the past it was filled with the pain but today was really different. So this is how it feels, making love with the person I loved. I kissed Kayden's neck as I traveled my fingers through his silk hair. Then he suddenly started to thrust me so hard but it brought me pleasure. 　　"Ka..yn.. it feels.... so good" I moaned as Kayden smiled and kissed my forehead. It's great to see him smiling, so beautiful, my heart was beating so fast. I closed my eyes and I hugged him while wrapping my arms around his strong shoulders. Then he started to move fast. His hard length was hitting my walls, it was a really good feeling. 　　I really didn't want to let go of him, but I had to think about my baby's safety more than anything. As a mother I should protect my baby maybe Kayden will understand it later...when he became a father and had a family. My heart hurts as I imagined he's with another woman and with his children but I won't come back again to see those things. I finally forgot about everything and started to feel the pleasure.... 　　"I..love you Kayden." I whispered against Kayden's ear and for the last time and kissed his forehead. I didn't know at what time I fell asleep.... from tomorrow onwards I'll spend a new life......