Chapter 255: Uncertainty in Leadership

Diana I sat in Lazarus's cottage, patting the back of my well-fed infant two days later. Nicholas let out a burp on my shoulder and cuddled himself as though he were having a conversation with my hair, gently tugging on it. “It’s good to see motherhood becoming you yet again,” Lazarus said, watching the boy. “I have a funny idea,” he added, causing me to click my tongue and shake my head. “I don’t know how to do any of this. I need to know,” I said. “I don’t know how to deal with Morefears, aside from all this,” I gestured to the room and myself. “I feel confused. What am I supposed to do, Lazarus? Not just as a mother but as Luna. What am I supposed to do as Luna?” Lazarus kept his eyes on me as I ranted. “Your uncertainty is understandable,” he said. “I can see it clearly, like daylight. But Diana,” he called my name softly, “the children have life, but they remain forever obscured from my view. It’s almost as though—” his eyes sparkled with something. “I know where the childre