Chapter 7

I am thirsty and tired. I sit on a lot to get down wondering whether I could run out of this forest, where am I running to, what should I do next step. And the worse situation is that I am lost, even I couldn’t find my way home. Now there is silence surrounding with me. I am so regret that I should have planned it out. And now all I can do is looking around and keeping echoes the voice from my mate, he said rejected, he said rejected. This is the reason why I ran away. No one knows that he rejected me after we made love. Maybe I will never ready enough to face him, but I decide that I wouldn’t cry for anyone who doesn’t deserve it. But I leave a space for Jared, he is y brother and for the sake of my father, I will forgive him in the future, not now. I am still angry with him as it is partly my fault first, I kept the truth. He didn’t know the real reason dad left, the real face of mum. I know I had the chance to tell him. His face shows in my head when I imagine the moment, he finds my letter. I guess that secret with die with me. I couldn't get myself to tell him. If Jared finds the truth, he will treat mother in a cruel way and treat himself in a…Oh I can’t imagine that. He will kill himself. I didn't tell hm the truth because I thought I was protecting him for pain. Hebe should keep this secret for me. As I know, she was a little obsessed with my brother, but that was the ending after he did all these mad things. I close my eyes trying recall the memory of my father and Jared to comfort myself. But the more I try, the more I think about him. What is him doing? Kissing other girls or flirting with other girls and texting them? I remember the pictures on his wall, will he tell me his past someday? About his school story, his truant event. Sean. No. Get out of my mind! Why can't I just forget him. I don't mean to hurt him but need a reason that he rejected me. I know that I am not pretty, not so elite, and not a perfect choice to be a Luna. I admit I haven’t shift yet, but where was his gentleness? Everyone hurt me, but no one hurt me like he did to me. He even didn’t know I counted the steps he took when he went away. The day feel like years, I am so alone. No one to talk, no one to share secrets, no one to joke. No more Jared, mum, or my beloved mate. It would be great to talk to Hebe over the phone about now. But it is awesome that I live on my own. I open my eyes and stare the sky. Under this sky, we live together, with my brother, my mother, my pack. And I can’t find a moment better than now, I am where far enough from Sean and Jared. I'm free forever. If I get a glass of wine, here is to my freedom. I hear a noise. And I was so scared that I could barely move. The paces of my heart break increase as the sound of the noise get louder and closers. It is like someone stepping on dry grass. Am I strong enough to kill a wolf or a hunter? Wish Hebe could tell the truth to Jared if I am gone. " I smell something." A voice says. There is someone here with me. I need to find somewhere to hide myself, hearing the footsteps getting closer and closer. "Tell Randy that there is someone here." One of them screaming. I'm sure it is a male as he's voice is deep, but he sounds childish. "I think it is a female." A different voice said. I know it is from a female. I would sure be killed like my father. I don’t know what to think, why I choose to leave? I should have picked other place to take a rest. My breathing picks up and it can't get back to normally. My palm is sweating, and my bones are hurting. Should I beg them to let me go? Where could I escape from this situation? Next second, I am exposed by them. They stare at me, and they must see the blank look on my face. I can’t move or speak. That's all I remember then the darkness come to me.