Chapter 3

Staring at myself in the mirror, I really wanted to cry. I wish that the mirror was lying to me. I... I was fat. I have no idea how I gained so much weight, maybe added few pounds. I barely eat because I am either busy doing my schoolwork or things Jared left me to do but at night, I stuff my face like I have never eaten before. And I when I was stressful or upset, I eat too. I t is a way to relax myself and comfort me. I knew it was unhealthy but at this point in my life, I don't care. But now I start to worry that will my mate ever accept me and love me? You know when you are 18, this means that you could potentially find your mate. So, I could find my mate. I hoped that he could take me somewhere away from here like Romeo, and we could be alone and find another pack. We would walk in the forest and cook together. And have a babe taking it to the place where we used to hang around. I dreamt that my mate would take care me, comfort me and protect me. I kept waiting just founding these were my daydream. I didn't want to see myself anymore. I had thought the solution to become fit and heathy, but Jared never allowed me to go outside to run except go to school or to buy groceries. It is obviously I don't see enough of Hebe. She is the only friend who knows the truth and hasn't left my side. She will go to the party. Many times, she tried to tell my brother the truth but stopped her. It was enough that I was the one who broke heart. I won't tell Jared the truth now but maybe one day I will. Even if Sean brought me a dress for his birthday party, I knew I wasn't the one who on the invited list. You couldn’t find me in the dance floor, I would be serving drinks and other things. 2 hours before the party began, I took a quick shower and wore my red dress, which was so tight, I almost couldn’t breathe. And I have to go there early and help the chef to get the party ready. When I wore white flat shoes sitting on the bed, I heard the door downstairs slam shut. My heart was so mess that I didn’t know what I should do. Thinking that whether it would be Loui, he might lock me to prevent me attending the party. I started to panic, thinking of all the escape route. "Ingrid my dear." A high pitch which was obviously from a woman. I knew that voice which didn’t belong to my dear brother nor my alpha Sean. It was the person I'm forced to call mum. Hearing her footsteps getting closer as she climbed the steps of the stairs. I could not help groaning loudly. She opened my bedroom door and I saw her huge grin on her face. "You should have a nice way to greet your mother." She speaks still having that stupid grin on her face. "You're not my mother. You don’t deserve it." I speak. "How could, my Kent-" I cut her off. "Don't call my name. You make me sick." I whisper without giving her a gaze. Her grin vanished and replaced with a hard serious look. "How dare you! I'm still your mother. Show me your respect or I would have a talk with Jared. I think that your brother won't like to hear that Ingrid's been a bad girl now, would he?" There she goes, acting victim again. I passed her and walked out of the house without giving her any reply, I promised that I never stared others like the way I stared her, with hatred. I never hated anyone as much as I hated her. I would never forgive her as long as I miss my father! I walked to the pack house where the party was gonna be taken place. I took a deep breath noticing that the place was huge and luxury. The walls were painted blue, and the floor was white with gold shining. I memorized where Sean told me to go. I needed to go to the hall to find few people, they would tell me what I have to do. When I made it to the party hall however, there was no one around. The whole place was empty which was the perfect space to have a party. There were bar stools, private corners well known as the secret corners for dirty people and a dance floor, tables and chairs for the guest. "Oh, look what I found, a little sheep." A voice said suddenly that made me lose my balance and I almost fell. A boy with slick back hair and many tattoos glaze at me. And he has a pale skin which make his dark hair deeper and his tattoo more obvious. "Are you going to work? Little sheep? " He asks me after few seconds of staring at each other. " Where do I start?" I asked. "Help the chef, you should have known." He says, throwing me an apron. "Don’t be scared little sheep, we are the same person. Just do what they asked. Don’t you think it is interesting that it is their Happy Moment, but our Slave Day? "He laughed. I stay quiet though. Few people started to come with the sun setting and the sky getting darker. Time went and more and more people came filling the hall, most of them already came were either drunk or high. The dance floor was darkened but we are able to see each other. I was pushed and pulled around but a hand on my arm. There were so many people in the dance floor that I couldn't see the person. I was suddenly dragged out the dance floor. I looked up to see my hero. It was the dark hair with many tattoos. The man who called me little sheep. "Take care little sheep. That is not your area." He grinned. "I-I didn't mean to go there. I just got lost." I didn’t know why I was so nervous when I faced him. "Come on let's serve more drinks. You could stay with me." He chuckled, touching my head with his hands. "Why are you being so nice to me?" I couldn’t help asking. He stopped walking but never turned around. I stood there, waiting for his to reply. At that moment the whole world was so quiet. Then he sighed, turning around, and said, "Because we are the same, don’t you remember what I said? My family disowned me just like yours." He stared at me straight and I read something in the eye. "We are not same. I have my family!" I denied. "They did not disown me." He just kept staring at me. "Then why are you here drinking by yourself?" He left. Leaving me in the middle of the party hall as people danced around me. But his voice echoed in my head, yeah, he was right, I’d been alone and still pretended. "Move! Get out of the way!" Someone pushed me. I didn’t know what I should do, maybe I was the one who shouldn’t be there. Look my identity, and I haven't shifted yet and my brother…So many voices in my head that I ran, pushing people out of the way. Running to anywhere my foot could take me. I was in the garden. I sat on one of the benches and cried to myself. But something unexpected happened. I turned around as I felt someone behind me, in that moment, the music from inside slowly fading and everything else becoming blurry but him. Everything just stopped and I couldn’t feel anything but him. His eyes with the hazel, and suddenly colors were flying around. Red, green, blue…colorful. I couldn't take my eyes off him. My mate. The Alpha on my pack starting from today, Sean. I stared at him, and he did too, giving me the brightest smile. I never knew that I was so obsessed to him. Looking his hazel eyes, I reminded of the daylight, the golden daylight. His eyes were brighter than the moon. He walked toward me closer then…he hugged me tightly, yeah, I was embraced by his huge hug. And I felt everything just stopped, colors weren’t flying everywhere. I only felt him and saw daylight. To be honest, I was so shocked that Alpha was hugging me. I didn’t know why he did this, and I was confused by what he said to me. "Ingrid, I missed you." I pulled him away from me because I needed to make sure whether he was drunk, or his brain was alright. I looked into his eyed, then dropped to his nose, his lips, his whole face. And I notice than he was looking at my lips. I could see his eyelashes and every detail on his face that I wanted to make it mine. Until his lips met mine, I didn’t realize that our face was so close. He kissed me so desperately that he grabbed my legs and wrapped around his waist. I didn’t know what to do but I felt I was beloved, for the first time, I was beloved by my Alpha. At this moment, I didn’t want to think anything but enjoyed this feeling that beloved by him. He pulled me away, Once I thought that this kiss was the ending and was disappointed. My Cinderella dream was broken, and I went back to the reality. "Go to rendezvous." He says taking my hands and dragging me headfirst. I didn’t know how long we were walking but I remembered that we climbed stairs. We stopped and we arrived at our destination or as he said, rendezvous. We kissed again like it was the end of the world and we hoped that the day could start as soon as possible. He ripped my dress and his neat tux so roughly. "You're beautiful, babe." He said running his hands through my hair and tried to comfort me. I knew this and I did truly believe that I was beautiful like he said. I held his shoulders with my hands wrapped my legs around his waist. I got a feeling that we were meant for each other. Weren’t we, my mate? We hugged each other in the bed.