Chapter 79

Angel's POV One. Two. Three, I take a deep breath. I have been counting up to three to breathe because I forgot how to at one point and passed out. That has to be my second favorite aspect of yesterday, I keep reminding myself I may have lost my son with Adrian but I have another cute little boy that needs me breathing. Thinking of what Adrian's and my son could have been like, the things we would do together, how I would raise him with Adrian has me feeling depressed. I only now realise how much of an absent mother I've been to my oldest son, it's unfair that I was prepared to do so much more for another child but this was my second chance at it all, to be a good, loving, focused parent, it was my second chance at motherhood. Adrian left Camilla for me yesterday and I liked that. I know he and I might never be together but I love that she can't have him either. Adrian hasn't been to my room in a while, I know it's been a few hours because I'm staring at the analog clock in the ho