Chapter 27: Lack of Evidence

Although we were living together again, it felt like we had grown more indifferent to each other. Once again, I took Edmond's passion for granted. I could feel his confusion, but I simply couldn't force myself to be loving towards him. He didn't belong to me. He loved another woman I'd never met. I pressed my back against the door and pretended not to hear his knock. Edmond seemed to give up. He said something and then went out the door. I looked up helplessly. I longed for his scent and his gentleness, but every time I was close to him, my rationality kept telling me that the two of us were just in a contractual relationship and that I had been loving someone who didn't love me. It also told me that I was the third wheel, the kind of person I used to hate the most. As I thought about this, a strong feeling of guilt and nausea instantly overwhelmed me. I couldn't help but hold my chest and retch. The corners of my eyes were constantly wet with tears. In a daze, I moved back to th