Chapter 14

Kimberly Medilton "You okay?" Jaden sat beside me and I nodded "You can say that" "Ethan left" Jaden said "I know , we met accidently yesterday and he told me that" "What did he say?" "His grandmother is sick so he needs to make sure that everything is okay. He will be homeschooled and maybe he will come back here in a few months" I said and there's a lot of things going in my head. Rafael's confession and Ethan's departure. "And why are you sad? You will see him in a few months" "I'm going to London in 3 months Jaden , he might not come home by that time" I sighed "What now?" Jaden asked "Let it go.. Yesterday was a real goodbye" "Did he say anything else?" "He asked me to get a good score , he mentioned my stupid brain again and he said he will be back soon. He hugged me for a second and then he left" I said and leaned my back to the wall , Jaden turned silent "You will move on?" Jaden asked "I need to but I don't think I can for now" I answered and he nodded "He will move to New York soon too , you will go back to New York after you finish. You both might see each other again" "I don't think so" I chuckled coldly "Maybe if you two are meant for each other , you will see each other again" I shook my head hearing his statement "We're not Jaden , don't give me hopes" "Then be with someone who love you so you can forget him and start a new page" Jaden said and I turned to him "I can't be with that person when I have someone else inside my heart. I will hurt that person and it's not fair" "He's fucking stupid" "Swear to me that you will never tell me where I'm going. Never for my sake you will tell him" I said and I looked at him seriously "I won't tell him , I promise" "If you tell him , I will hate you" I warned and he nodded "Don't worry , he won't find out about you but if he finds you himself don't blame me" "He won't, trust me" I said confidently After that day , everything started to fall in place and my heart wasn't working well. Not being able to see Ethan hurted me , inside and out. I lost weight and just kept being sad. I studied hard by myself and Joy helped me a lot. I hadn't talked to Rafe in a really long time and I've been thinking about it a lot. The exam week passed and my grade came out quite good. Not that bad and I slipped my test paper to Ethan's locker. The time for me to go to London became so close and closer I'm not ready to let Seattle go yet. The memories and just everything here. I wrote Ethan a letter to say thank you sorry but there's no clue where I will go. I told Joy , Jaden , my grandparents and everyone that I know to shut their mouth about where I'm going I don't want Ethan to know.. Time passed so quickly until it's time for me to go to London. I'm happy that I'm pursuing my dreams but I'm sad to leave without seeing Ethan for the last time. I hope everything is okay for his family. I hoped he would take care of himself in Toronto. There's a lot of things that I wanted to say to him but I can't Going to London means I'm going to start a new page. A really new chapter for me. It's time to let Ethan go for good. He will find someone for him and I will find someone for me. Everything will be okay right? Everything will turn out well right? I'm literally not myself , I might act like I'm okay when I'm with family and friends but when it's my turn to be alone I'm not okay. I cried a lot just to think about Ethan I realized that Ethan means a lot to me more than just a guy I like. He gave me happiness even though he was never nice to me. It's weird to say that gave me happiness but when I'm near him , when he taught me , when he hugged me , when he said that he will be back soon.. I might sound like a weirdo by thinking that as my happiness but I'm quite a simple girl to be with. But we can force our feelings right? I can't force him It's our hearts that we're talking about. We can't choose the people that we like. It's just natural and landed on someone who we never predict It's time.. for me to leave. See you again my family and friends but Goodbye Seattle and Goodbye Ethan.. I hope you have a good life coming up a head I love you