Chapter 19 Trust

And here we are. Business-class on the way to China. Aziel, Iva and me. Iva is the interpreter that Danner sent with us. That's called an interpreter, but in fact she's our nanny who has to make sure Aziel and I don t end up in bed together. So Danner still doesn't trust me, I really don't know what he has against this man. And Aziel's face shows that he exactly knows what Danner's plan is with this chaperone. I laugh in my fist, sending a woman along was a really bad set from Danner. Aziel will be busy tonight, he never takes much time to hit on a woman. Our meetings start tomorrow around noon and he has plenty of time to fully enjoy the apple that was thrown into his lap. I keep my distance from all this, they are grown people who can take care of themselves. "Can I have a liqueur from you?", I ask the gushing flight attendant. She too has set her sights on Aziel, although she's not really his type. Oh well, maybe he's extra lucky tonight and they're having a threesome, I laugh to myself. My liqueur is delivered, and I see Aziel get up and walk to the bathroom. I recline my chair slightly to take a nap. I finally wake up hours later when Aziel shakes me awake. "Five more minutes and we'll land in Beijing," he tells me. He bends over me and buckles me up. Hmmmm, that's not really a coincidence, I got the hint. Laughing, I shake my head as I gather my things. We go through the VIP exit where a company car is waiting for us. The hotel is impressive, we are accompanied to the room by a hostess. All luxury gadgets are explained to us, top service here. Finally, when I'm alone in my room, I throw myself on the bed and take my phone out of the bag to call Danner. "Husband, how are you? I just arrived," I tell him as soon as the connection is established. "Husband? Are we doing that soon?", he teases. "Fiancé is already starting to sound monotonous. I'm up for an upgrade." I burst out laughing, Danner is so easy to seduce. "Hmmmm and I'm just getting used to it. Being engaged to you is a privilege. Do you know how many women envy me now? But I have you to myself." I hear his gasp, it's actually the first time I've spoken possessive about him. Usually, I am compliant and let him spoil me verbatim. "Are you serious, Loraine? I love you. I want us to deepen our relationship," he whispers. "Deeper you mean?", I answer suggestively, "This is the first time you complain I don t get it deep enough for you". He laughs heartily at my choice of words. "As deep as possible", he explains now. That's what I appreciate about Danner the most, he has a good sense of humor. I've never had a dull moment with him since we moved in together. "What are you doing tonight? Your meetings start tomorrow afternoon, so you have a few hours off," he asks. I know his focus is on Aziel. "Going through the papers again, rewriting notes and watching the moon on my balcony. Does that sound like fun to you?", I let him know. "And Aziel is probably in a threesome with your chaperone and the flight attendant," I add dryly. He clears his throat. "As long as you don't participate in that, they have my permission to do all the things they like. We have agreements, Loraine. I count on you to keep your word", he replies seriously. My irritation rises. "Danner, you don't have to remind me of that again. Every time you send a nanny with me, you prove that you don't trust me and have no faith that I keep my promises. So spare me your reminder." There is silence on the other end of the line. Hopefully, he realizes that his action is counterproductive and I'm not waiting for control. "That is not the case, Loraine. But Aziel is an old lover of yours. What do you expect from me, waiting at home sweetly while you travel with an old flame?". I suppress my anger now, there's really little point in talking about this. Danner is in a power play with Kaylah without regard for my feelings. "What I expect of you is that you trust me. But let's not talk about it now, Iva already traveled with us and I hope this trip is educational for her". The sphere between us is somewhat disturbed, which is actually strange, since we got engaged, we haven't had any disagreements. Maybe I'm being too rude to Danner, I know he means well, only he's showing it badly. I pack my documents case and sort the files on the desk and walk to the bathroom for a refreshing bath. And when I'm back in the room, I take a seat and start my work, going through every paper again. I go on like this for three hours, until I feel a stiff neck. Some stretches and I get up to walk to the balcony. A fresh breeze blows, and I sit on a patio chair to enjoy it. Beijing is really beautiful by night, the traffic lights against the moon are such an amazing sight. Under my balcony I suddenly see four luxury cars stop and a group of men get out. Their conversations are taken away by the wind. Confident, they walk into the hotel as the cars drive up again. Among the group I think I recognize one of the men. I blink my eyes and look again with wide eyes. No, optical deception I guess, I don't know anyone in China, even the men in the negotiations I have only seen via Zoom video. Again I throw my head back, my face turned to the moon. My thoughts involuntarily turn to Dordrich. Would he be with his wife and children now, as a family man taking care of his family? Where was he on vacation with his family? Would he think of me? So many questions, some meant to ease my conscience. What is it about this married man that attracts me so much? In his presence, I forget my own personal code not to get involved with the possession of other women. Dordrich has something that only makes me think in one direction when we meet, his crotch. Never before has a man aroused such strong feelings in me, not even Danner. Well, there are two busy days ahead, so I won't have much time to think about him..