  Inside my older brother&quot;s walk-in closet, I was enthralled. His clothes are filthy.
  Tuxedos, tee shirts, long sleeve shirts, and other formal wear are carefully organized. His shoes are likewise arranged nicely.
  In his closet, there was a wide window, and his watches were displayed on a large table. In the order of his belongings, he will undoubtedly notice whether or not they have been touched.
  His closet, like his bedroom, has a stronger scent of him. I stood in the middle of his walk-in closet for a long time, pondering and debating what I should wear in his closet.
  What he did before continues to irritate me. He just stripped me naked!
  I never thought he would do something like that, but if there is a chance with another woman, that is fine. But what about me? He will not even approach me, and if he does, it was as if I am infected with a contagious disease.
  I was 

  &quot;Ms. Amana? Did you hear what I said, Ms. Amana?&quot; I was taken aback when Mrs. Cruz delicately patted me on the shoulder. She is the librarian at our university. She is one of the most despised instructors on school due to her severe personality.
  "Please accept my apologies, Mrs. Cruz. What exactly are you saying this time?&quot; I hesitated to question Mrs. Cruz, who had raised her eyebrows before because I had spaced out while she was speaking to me.
  "As I was saying, Ms Amana, just put those documents on my table," she added as she scrutinized my entire appearance.
  I gave her a small smile before doing what she told me to do. When I turn away from her, I close my eyes tightly.
  I became infected with the students&quot; nervousness as a result of rumors that Mrs. Cruz is too strict. I followed her instructions and placed the papers I was carrying on her table. One of 

  I am going to try to quit thinking about the future from now on. I am just going to live in the moment the way I want it to be. I am going to live it to the utmost, armed with the knowledge I have gained in the past.
  That is something I have not been able to do in recent years. I am constantly so worried about how things will end out that I forget to live in the moment, and as a result, time has passed and I have not had the opportunities that my contemporaries had. I do not want to have any regrets, therefore I am going to enjoy my life to the utmost.
  My spirit is ecstatic. I felt as though a huge object had been lifted from my shoulders. As I felt the rain, I grinned. Oh, how I adore it.
  It feels so lovely to just lie down in the grass and not think about anything or be concerned about anything.
  I smile as I close my eyes and enjoy the rain water hitting my moist body. I beli

Inside my older brother&quot;s walk-in closet, I was enthralled. His clothes are filthy.
  Tuxedos, tee shirts, long sleeve shirts, and other formal wear are carefully organized. His shoes are likewise arranged nicely.
  In his closet, there was a wide window, and his watches were displayed on a large table. In the order of his belongings, he will undoubtedly notice whether or not they have been touched.
  His closet, like his bedroom, has a stronger scent of him. I stood in the middle of his walk-in closet for a long time, pondering and debating what I should wear in his closet.
  What he did before continues to irritate me. He just stripped me naked!
  I never thought he would do something like that, but if there is a chance with another woman, that is fine. But what about me? He will not even approach me, and if he does, it was as if I am infected with a contagious disease.
  I was reminded of the happenings from my birthday celebration as I pondered why he did that to me. It 

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