Chapter 91 Let's Have a Try

　　Suddenly, I feel horrible. I don’t know what the feeling is in my heart and why the weird feeling comes to me. I should only feel sad for Cody. How can I think about another guy? Who am I loving, Cody or Bruce? Am I actually loving anyone? But, should I love anyone? Cody is always impatient to me. He never pays attention to me. As for Bruce, he is good to me but I don’t like him so he forced me into sex and made me his slave. So I said he was selfish. 　　But talking about selfish, I am selfish too. I broke his heart just because I love another man who didn’t even look at me. But what I should do if I am not that selfish? Should I accept Bruce? If I accept him, will I be happy? If I give up a man I have love for years and turn to another man who has loved me for years, will I be happy? I am in a huge mess. Before I realize it, tears drop onto the pillow. 　　I am crying! I am surprised by myself. Who am I crying for, Cody or Bruce, or myself? I blink to get rid of the tears. Maybe, I can