  El&quot;s point of view
  Everything went fine, but I was not quite happy. Perhaps this is when we do what is best for us while ignoring our hearts wants. It's difficult to force ourselves to do things that go against our feelings; you never know when you'll learn or educate yourself. Because of the "what ifs" we have in mind, deciding which path to take in life might be difficult. The most important thing is to take risks, but I'm frightened that someone may be hurt, so as long as I can, I'll continue and believe that I'll learn something that I can't do now.
  It's been a month since Ivan and I decided to start dating. Nothing has changed in the month that has gone. It becomes more difficult to act normal in front of others as time passes. I'm happy with Ivan, but I'm not sure why I don't like him as much as he likes me. I am happy when I am with him and his friends, but despite the 

  I'm not sure why Jas hasn't shown up in over a month. I waited for him, anxious, but I refrained from contacting him since I had told myself that I would forget how I felt for him. I believe that fate has chosen not to allow me to see him, but it has caused me to think about him every day because I don't know if he is in good health. I don't see him even in my night classes; I tried to walk by their building but couldn't see even his shadow.
  For the past month, what has he been up to? Isn't he supposed to come on campus whenever I have a night class so he won't see me? Why isn't he keen in seeing me? Our most recent meeting went well, and I don't remember him being irritated with me. I haven't been able to return his umbrella that I lent him because we last met when he stayed the night at my place. I'm not sure why, but his umbrella was constantly in my purse, and I couldn't bear lea

  Ivan&quot;s point of view
  I went to school early on purpose so that I could keep up with El. I'll stay at the guardhouse until she arrives. I don't care how long I have to wait since all I want to do is be with her. I can't describe how ecstatic I was last night when she accepted everything, and I'm not going to ruin the chance she gave me. I wasn't expecting everything; in fact, I was nervous when El and I met at KFC as I was worried she'd be mad with me. For the time being, I'll show her that I'm worth it and that I'm sincere about my feelings for her.
  I'm not sure when I'll ask her to visit us because both my parents want to see her. Dad was delighted when he heard last night that I had already got feelings for a girl, and he was even more shocked when mom told him about El's type of student. My parents were happy, and I'm not sure how they'd react if El and I didn't work.
  Whe

El&quot;s point of view
  Everything went fine, but I was not quite happy. Perhaps this is when we do what is best for us while ignoring our hearts wants. It's difficult to force ourselves to do things that go against our feelings; you never know when you'll learn or educate yourself. Because of the "what ifs" we have in mind, deciding which path to take in life might be difficult. The most important thing is to take risks, but I'm frightened that someone may be hurt, so as long as I can, I'll continue and believe that I'll learn something that I can't do now.
  It's been a month since Ivan and I decided to start dating. Nothing has changed in the month that has gone. It becomes more difficult to act normal in front of others as time passes. I'm happy with Ivan, but I'm not sure why I don't like him as much as he likes me. I am happy when I am with him and his friends, but despite the efforts he has made and the feelings he has made me feel, I still consider him a friend.
  I don't 

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