  Ivan&quot;s point of view
  I went to school early on purpose so that I could keep up with El. I'll stay at the guardhouse until she arrives. I don't care how long I have to wait since all I want to do is be with her. I can't describe how ecstatic I was last night when she accepted everything, and I'm not going to ruin the chance she gave me. I wasn't expecting everything; in fact, I was nervous when El and I met at KFC as I was worried she'd be mad with me. For the time being, I'll show her that I'm worth it and that I'm sincere about my feelings for her.
  I'm not sure when I'll ask her to visit us because both my parents want to see her. Dad was delighted when he heard last night that I had already got feelings for a girl, and he was even more shocked when mom told him about El's type of student. My parents were happy, and I'm not sure how they'd react if El and I didn't work.
  Whe

  El&quot;s point of view
  Everything went fine, but I was not quite happy. Perhaps this is when we do what is best for us while ignoring our hearts wants. It's difficult to force ourselves to do things that go against our feelings; you never know when you'll learn or educate yourself. Because of the "what ifs" we have in mind, deciding which path to take in life might be difficult. The most important thing is to take risks, but I'm frightened that someone may be hurt, so as long as I can, I'll continue and believe that I'll learn something that I can't do now.
  It's been a month since Ivan and I decided to start dating. Nothing has changed in the month that has gone. It becomes more difficult to act normal in front of others as time passes. I'm happy with Ivan, but I'm not sure why I don't like him as much as he likes me. I am happy when I am with him and his friends, but despite the 

  El&quot;s point of view
  I awoke with the sensation of someone embracing my back. I remained still in my posture and simply felt his warmth. I'm not sure whether I should be delighted because of his hug or saddened as I only have an hour until I have to let him go. I stayed in bed for a few more minutes, carefully removing his arm from around my waist. He didn't feel till I left the room when I got up.
  Before heading to the kitchen, I make myself presentable. I have class today, so I just got up early to prepare breakfast. I made fried rice, spam, and eggs, just like I used do every morning. I also made a cup of hot chocolate for myself and a cup of cold chocolate for Jas. Even though it's 4:30 a.m., Jas has yet to leave the room. Everything is all up on the table, and all I have to do now is wait for him to arrive before starting breakfast. Something makes me want to go to my room 

Ivan&quot;s point of view
  I went to school early on purpose so that I could keep up with El. I'll stay at the guardhouse until she arrives. I don't care how long I have to wait since all I want to do is be with her. I can't describe how ecstatic I was last night when she accepted everything, and I'm not going to ruin the chance she gave me. I wasn't expecting everything; in fact, I was nervous when El and I met at KFC as I was worried she'd be mad with me. For the time being, I'll show her that I'm worth it and that I'm sincere about my feelings for her.
  I'm not sure when I'll ask her to visit us because both my parents want to see her. Dad was delighted when he heard last night that I had already got feelings for a girl, and he was even more shocked when mom told him about El's type of student. My parents were happy, and I'm not sure how they'd react if El and I didn't work.
  When I spotted her arriving, I smiled and turned around so she wouldn't recognize me when she got clos

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