  El&quot;s pov
  "El, you must eat; if you do not, you will become considerably weaker."
  'That was the first word I heard from Ivan when I woke my eyes and mind.' I have no idea what time it is, and I don't think I've had enough sleep. My eyelids are still too thick, and I can feel my body heat. If I was cold before, I now feel like I'm running a fever. I still have class today and it's a big loss to me when I'm absent. Ivan was also correct in saying that if I didn't eat and didn't force myself to get up, I would become much weaker. I had to force myself to stand up, and he assisted me in sitting down. I leaned against the bed's headboard before turning to face Ivan.
  "Can you tell me what time it is?" I asked. I also saw that he was dressed differently than when he drove me here to the apartment.
  He answered, "It's 7:00 p.m., and I've been trying to get you up earlier, but you do

  Jas&quot; pov
  I can't appreciate everything I did, especially the way I hurt El. I didn't mean to hurt her, and I hope she understands that. I hope she's okay, and that she won't ignore me despite everything I've done to her. Every time I'm with her, I have a relaxing time, and that is precisely my problem.
  Everything has a limit for me; I shouldn't be excessively joyful or sad. I don't know how to live a regular life anymore, especially since that it has affected the people I care about. I'll avoid harming myself as long as I can because I still want to see and be with the people that care about me. It was very difficult for me to not want to be with them; I wanted to be joyful throughout my time with them, but I couldn't because everything would turn to grief. It's the same thing that's going on between El and me.
  I couldn't explain everything to her because I wasn't experienci

  I stopped talking, and he didn't drive too fast either. Everything is quiet, and he respects my need for silence by not bothering me or speaking to me.
  I'm freezing now because his car has air conditioning, but I'm not complaining to him. I can still stand the cold; I don't want to ask him for a favor. I did not ask him for it. I didn't ask him to drive me home; he just did it, and I won't thank him for it.
  My head is literally hurting, and I'd like to sleep. I need to get some rest because I still have school later, and if I used to be so excited for night class, now I'm not sure how I should feel anymore. I know Jas wouldn't want to meet me yet because the situation was so new. I'm not going to force him to see me, and I'm not going to see him even if I really want to. I'll accept his decision to avoid me at first because I'm sure he'll return.
   "You may take a nap; I'll wake y

El&quot;s pov
  "El, you must eat; if you do not, you will become considerably weaker."
  'That was the first word I heard from Ivan when I woke my eyes and mind.' I have no idea what time it is, and I don't think I've had enough sleep. My eyelids are still too thick, and I can feel my body heat. If I was cold before, I now feel like I'm running a fever. I still have class today and it's a big loss to me when I'm absent. Ivan was also correct in saying that if I didn't eat and didn't force myself to get up, I would become much weaker. I had to force myself to stand up, and he assisted me in sitting down. I leaned against the bed's headboard before turning to face Ivan.
  "Can you tell me what time it is?" I asked. I also saw that he was dressed differently than when he drove me here to the apartment.
  He answered, "It's 7:00 p.m., and I've been trying to get you up earlier, but you don't wake up."
  I was surprised to see that it was already 7:00 p.m. I slept for an excessive amo

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