Chapter 5

CHAP 5 MILA I was still sitting on the floor of this apartment so cold and still crying, and yet I had been warned about this man but I was so blinded by the love I had for him that I saw nothing. come, I trusted him so much, how can you pretend to love someone and treat them like that? He didn't even give me a look when he left this apartment, I wanted to get up and leave but there was a force that kept me on the ground, and I couldn't move, I couldn't. can't even get mad at him, even though all I wanted right now was to hate him with all my might I was trying somehow to convince myself that he was just in shock and that he was going to come back felt again, must believe that God heard my prayers, I hear the key turn in the lock, I get up of a good when I see him enter the apartment, I feel a great sense of relief Me curled up in his arms: I knew you were coming back and you were just in shock, we're gonna get through everything together, I love you so much... I try to give him a kiss but he won't give me the chance Hilanne: I have to leave for Portugal, I don't know how soon I will be back Me a little surprised: but you weren't supposed to leave so soon Hilanne: I think this trip comes at the best time, I need a moment for myself and to find myself Me surprised: so if I understand correctly you are trying to run away from your responsibility, is that it? Hilanne: Responsibilities that I didn't choose, responsibilities that were imposed on me I approach him as calmly as possible and smack him with as much force as I can. Me with all the contempt I could feel: you son of a bitch, you're a spoiled rotten brat, you think I chose to get pregnant? And moreover of a kid like you Hilanne: well it's all clear then, I'm going to leave you won't have to put up with this son of a bitch He takes a suitcase and puts everything he can in it and heads for the door Hilanne: goodbye Me despair: if you walk through this door, forget that you have ever met me in your life, and forget that you have a child somewhere, if you walk through this door, don't come back Hilanne: whatever you want... He leaves and leaves me standing there in the middle of the apartment, not knowing what to do, I cried so much that no more tears come out, I go to the bathroom and I take a bath, I change and pack my bag I no longer intend to stay a second longer in this cursed apartment, when I'm finished I take a last look at the apartment, these walls which sheltered my laughter, our projects, these walls between which I passed the best times of my life, this place where this man made me feel like the most beautiful and important woman in the world, today I see myself saying goodbye to this place, because the person who to give so much happiness at one point just stabbed me in the heart here, I shake my head to chase away the tears that blur my vision and I double-lock the door When I arrive at the reception, I go to the receptionist Me: Hello! Receptionist: Hello ma'am, what can I do for you? Me: just to give you my key The receptionist a little surprised: you want to give me your key Me: yes I would need more I leave him the key and turn my back on him before he has the idea to ask me other questions JADE I've been looking for a job for a while now and I can't find one, I'm desperate we'll soon run out of money and if I don't find a job soon I don't know how it's going go for us, I dare not even imagine This morning I have to go to a work-for-work interview so I'm going there with all the optimism possible, soon our situation will change I was surprised when I arrive at laba and I am told that they can no longer receive me and the position was already for someone else Me surprised: but I had to go for an interview this morning what happened I don't understand Secretary: There are a lot of changes going on in the company lately, another company just paid ours so a new CEO is a bit of a hassle I was a little in shock what have I been doing to bring such bad luck lately my God, I prefer to leave without making a scandal I prefer to use this energy to look for another job, when I wanted to leave a poster holds my attention, when I take it I directly recognize the company Me: Is this the company that bought your company? The secretary: yes yes Me: thank you very much I was so angry I should have doubted it, why hadn't I thought of it earlier, I leave the building and I stop a taxi, I give him the address where he should drop me off , I arrive laba after about thirty minutes, I didn't think I would come back to this place, it reminds me of so many bad memories but my anger was so great that I entered the building, I went up to its floor Me: Hello, is your bump there? The secretary: yes but he is a bit busy Me angry: I don't care if he's angry he'll get me whether he likes it or not I storm into the office without waiting for someone to announce me, if I was waiting for this I'm sure that this bastard was never going to receive me given all that he is tampering with against me I open the door violently when he sees me he smiles which increases my anger even more, who does he think he is? Me screaming: No but Gianni, who do you think you are? You think you can decide everyone's life like that without... Gianni cutting me off: shut up, you're at work here, if you haven't noticed yet Secretary: I'm sorry sir I couldn't stop it Gianni: don't worry this little one outruns a wild animal, you can dispose The two people he was working with also withdraw and close the door behind them, when we find ourselves alone in his office, he leaps towards me like a lion towards its prey, which frankly scares me, as and when measured that 'he walks towards me I back away until the wall behind me stops me Gianni kicking the wall: go ahead talk to me like that again and I'll smash your jaw Me : …. Gianni: but go talk right? Someone has to educate you Me :…. He leaves me paralyzed there and goes back to sit behind his huge desk and looks at me, I was still glued to the wall still shocked to see so much violence Gianni: you're going to tell me what brings you here, I have to do me Me stepping forward and tossing him the poster: what the hell is that? Gianni: What do you see? Me: Every time I get called for an interview when I join the company mysteriously has a new CEO doing some shuffles and they don't need my services anymore, do you mean that? Gianni: I have the right to pay for all the boxes I want and I don't need your blessing in any way, if that's all you can have Angry Me: You're really just a heartless bastard who feeds on people's pain Gianni smiling: the heartless bastard informs you that at the end of the week if you don't have a job he will take his little brother away from you The anger rises so much in me that I feel that I no longer control my body, I spill all the documents on the floor on his desk, I go up and I start by throwing all that is left on the desk, he gets up and takes me get out of the office, i kick him with all my might, i scratch him as much as i can but that doesn't stop him, he opens the elevator and puts in, before the elevator closes he throws me Gianni: you only have 36 hours to find a job, if you want to keep your nephew