Chapter 4

CHAP4 JADE I feel so tired, I feel like all the energy I had in my body has been drained, when I leave the cemetery I notice this devil's car still parked at the entrance, no but frankly he's so embarrassed, I pretend not to see the car and I take the opposite direction praying that he does not see me, I was walking as fast as possible when I feel someone holding me by the arms , when I turn around he was there in front of me Me speaking very quietly: what do you want? Gianni: you're supposed to take me to see my little brother Me resigning myself: ok follow me Gianni: not going to walk home, so you follow me to the car Me: I'm out of the question to get into this car Gianni: do you want to follow me willingly or unwillingly? I don't answer his question and I turn my back on him, I don't have the energy to enter his game, I walk along the street to find a taxi, I feel the presence of a person behind me when I turn around he was there, he doesn't even give me the opportunity to understand what's going on, he takes me on his shoulder, the blows I give him on his back don't dissuade him, he takes great strides towards the car and throws me in and sits next to me, I didn't understand what happened He doesn't even ask me to tell him where we're going, I don't want to talk to him either, so I shut up and look at him, to my surprise, he takes me to my aunt's Me amazed: how do you know where I live? Gianni: You had no idea that I was going to leave you unattended so that you disappeared with my little brother I don't even answer him, I go to the front door, he always follows me, when I ring my aunt comes to open the door for me, when she sees him she questions me with her eyes insistently Me: he comes to see the baby Gianni: Hi! He doesn't even wait to be asked to come in until he walks into the house following me; I walk towards the bedroom he follows me Me turning around: you can wait here, I'll bring it back to you Gianni: no, I want to see what environment he is in Me on the defensive: what are you trying to insinuate? That I'm not taking care of my nephew or that he's living in a dump? Gianni: I just want to know if he has the necessary I leave without answering, when we arrive in the room, he goes straight to the cradle takes him in his arms and whispers in his ear, sentences in a language that I do not understand, I remain leaning against the door and I watch him do it Gianni: what is his name? Me: Angel Gianni: At least you gave him a name worthy of him Me taking the baby out of his arms: he's tired he needs to sleep Gianni: no but what's the deal with you? You gon' stop acting wild when you're next to the baby hope you grabbed me Me furious: my problem is that I don't want to see you here or that you're too close to him, I'm not going to tell you that you're not welcome here Gianni approaching me with a smile on his face: you don't have to worry, you won't support me for long, I'll take him home soon Me: you're gonna have to run over me to get it out of here Gianni: it won't be too complicated After these sentences he leaves and lets me plant it and leaves the room, I put the baby in his cradle I follow him Me screaming: you poor charlatan you think I'll leave my nephew with freaks like you? Gianni: you forget that this baby you're talking about has the blood of us monsters running through his veins so he's just like us Me: Never compare yourself to Angel again, he will never ever be like you Gianni with blood-chilling coldness: anyway as I said he is one of us, his father is still alive, he has his family to take care of him so he is out of the question that I leave him to you, if you behave well you can come and visit him Me: we'll see Gianni: try to stop me and we'll see…. HILANNE I've been here for almost a week, she won't let me touch her, she pretends to be sick and spends almost no time with me, I don't understand what's going on, she who is usually so endearing I can't understand her sudden change in behavior I join her in the room with the meal tray that we have just been delivered, when she comes out of the shower and joins me she just takes a juice and sits down to take it Me: is that all you gonna take? Mila: yes, that's fine with me Me amazed: you haven't been eating much lately what's wrong? Mila smiling: It's nothing I'm just trying not to get too out of shape Me approaching her and kissing her neck: you know I love your shapes too much, I don't want you to lose them, at least take some scrambled eggs When I bring the dish closer to her, she rushes to the toilet, I follow her and I notice that she was vomiting and it's not the first time this has happened since my arrival. I'm alright ? Mila rinsing her face: yes it's fine Me: do you take your pills? I hope you are not pregnant Mila bursting into tears: if I am Me: I don't understand you, what are you trying to say? Mila screaming: I'm telling you I'm pregnant, what don't you understand? Me a little surprised: but how did it happen? You weren't taking your pills were you? Mila: no, but you're really sick, yes I've already forgotten to take the pill, but when we fuck we get pregnant, while you and I fuck each other the time when you come home Me still in shock: but you know very well that I didn't want to have a child now, you know all the responsibility that entails? Mila coming up to me and stroking my neck: I know it takes a lot of responsibility sweetheart but as long as we're together we can face anything Me breaking free from his grip: I don't think so, I'm not ready for this, I had so much plans for us, you ruined everything…. She collapses on the ground and bursts into tears but for the moment I do not feel the urge to take him in my arms I prefer to go out for a walk and think….