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Chapter 7

I wake up with a pounding headache and a sore face and slide out of bed with a groan. Body like a tonne weight and very aware that I have had a physical assault. It's still dark and glancing at my bedside clock tells me it's four a.m. and I sigh heavily. We came home, and I did exactly what I was told and came to bed, not really feeling like being around Carrero after that weird moment between us, even if bed was not something I wanted to do. I can handle him being his usually obtuse and stubborn arsehole self, but the softer glimpse threw me totally. I don't know how to deal with him being different, so I avoided him and decided to sleep this off. Except I can't; I need aspirin and a drink to clear the horrid metallic bloody taste from my mouth. I feel like I have the king of hangovers and even my body hurts in places that Demagio didn't even touch. I pad out into the apartment in nothing but my nightdress, pulling my hair up messily into a bun on top of my head with one hand as I wander through, and stop dead in my tracks when I see him. He's sitting on the couch, lounging casually with a lot of papers across the table in front of him and a laptop open on top of it all. He's still in his dress shirt and trousers but his normally immaculate hair looks a little scruffier as though he's been running his hands through it. I swallow and take a deep breath and continue on my way to the kitchen, curving around the sunken island seating area in hopes he won't notice me. I can't be arsed with a lecture on my skimpy attire and breaking one of his cardinal rules of undressing when he is around. ''You're up early.'' That damned voice makes me jump and I throw him back a glance, dropping my hair to fall back around my shoulders like a fluffy red cloud. He's obviously in a chatty mood and I have no energy for it. I feel battle worn and vulnerable. ''I don't sleep much, always wake up randomly, and I need an aspirin.'' I start rummaging the drawers until I locate them and rifle in the refrigerator for a bottle of water to wash them down, suddenly aware that this has to be one of my most semitransparent nightgowns, and I am not wearing any underwear. Guess he will just have to suck it up and deal with it for once. It's not like I have body confidence issues anyway. ''That makes two of us. I can't remember the last time I slept more than four hours in a night.'' Alexi sounds tired and I glance back his way, noting that his normally subtle stubble is more prominent in the early hours of the day. It must grow fast, and I know he likes his early morning shaving routine, as I normally hear his razor going. Perks of co-habiting with him means I get to see him do normal mundane things like a mere human and it takes away that mystery a little bit. He's just a normal man with normal habits and doesn't come out of a factory with pre-perfected immaculateness. ''Well, you do tend to keep yourself up with a little bit of activity most nights you stay here, maybe bypass that and you will have more time for sleep.'' I flick my eyebrows at him, and he smiles softly. Aware that every weekend without fail he stays over and always with a new bimbo in tow. ''Doesn't seem to make a difference to you.'' He jibes back like a smart arse, reminding me of the sex ban he placed on me, and it just irritates my already tender feelings. HA FUCKING HA! ''Some of us have things other than sexual partners that keep us awake.'' I retort without thinking and curse myself out, I have this dumb need to overshare sometimes and I have no idea where it comes from. I told that stupid Sophie about my birth name and my past in a moment of weakness too. I'm my own worst enemy sometimes and you shouldn't give people like Alexi any weapons or information he can turn around on you. Number one rule of survival—do not give away too much about yourself—EVER. Never show your weaknesses or ways that you can be hurt. ''Such as …?'' He leans back on the couch throwing his arm over the top as he turns to me and rests confidently, arm bent as it accentuates the open neck of his button-down and showcases the peeks of tattoo curling up from the depths and behind his ear from up the side of his neck. I always wondered how far and wide that black ink spread on his body and it still intrigues me. There is no denying that tattoos make most men sexier and Alexi doesn't need the help. It does, however, add to the sinister look he has going on and that is not an entirely bad thing. ''Every woman has her nightmares I suppose. I'm no different to a million others.'' I try and blow it off casually as I locate a glass and take a pill to help with the throbbing of my face. Turning my back to him as I refill with cold water and some ice from the dispenser. I jump when his body heat comes up beside me suddenly and he slides an empty glass on the counter, pulling over the bottle of gin laying there and pours himself a new drink. ''You said you were used to being beaten … So, is that what you dream about? Men who have hurt you in the past?'' Probing Carrero on the prowl for Intel; Something he does a lot. Nosey bastard. I know better than to trust his probing questions. ''I'm not about to give you my sob story Carrero, it isn't some hidden scar needing to be talked about. I am great at moving on in life and forgetting shit that happens to me and you are not much of a shoulder to cry on. Not that I need you to be.'' I move away to get space from him, unnerved by the way his presence is making me feel claustrophobic suddenly. My body still tingling when he gets too near and having a hard time keeping the flutters at bay, even if I do think he is Satan. I swear it has to be his aftershave or something that makes me react this way without effort on his part, sometimes it happens without him even touching me and I hate that cannot get a handle on it. The devil's allure or something. ''Your history beyond appearing in New York a few years back is sketchy at best. My man couldn't even find anything at all about you before that. How come you haven't been deported back for lack of a visa? Do we have a secret husband somewhere enabling your stay?'' He looks blank and it's hard to tell if this questioning is intrigue or something more and I just shrug. ''I'm American. I was born here and taken to England by my mother when I was two. I don't need a visa because I'm a US citizen with dual nationality. My father lives in Texas. Dead for all I care.'' I walk to the couch and sit down, carefully pulling my legs out of sight under me and pull a cushion on my lap to cover some of what's on show. I'm more than aware he doesn't go for my full-on seduction act and after tonight I'm not in the mood to play it anyway. I feel like I just need a break from the outward persona and just time to sit and let my pain relief work. Time off from being a toy for men to push around. I just want to feel secure for a little while and not meet any demands or pushy questions while I get some respite. It's rare in my life to ever just get a moment to feel still. ''You don't have a relationship with him then? Is he why you came back here?'' Alexi is probing still, eyes doing a great job of not perving on the parts of me he can see, and I shrug again. Knowing when I avoid answering he turns into a controlling prick, but I don't really want to have this heart-to-heart with him. If I get it out quickly, without emotion he might just drop it altogether, feed his curiosity enough to never have him pry again. He wants information and that's all. ''Yes and no. I showed up thinking I might have someone to call family, and he threatened to shoot me if I didn't get off his property. He called me a harlot and the devil incarnate; fucking alcoholic bible basher. He inspired the red hair though with his sweet words of Jezebel and Lucifer's bride. Have to thank him for that and setting me on my new path in life.'' I say it without feeling but deep down it stirs an ember of spite and pain that I try to ignore. When it came to the lottery of parents, I bypassed luck with both and ended up with the barrel scrapes of the gene pool. I'm glad I grew up looking like my grandmother, from what I saw of her pictures anyway. She was long gone before I appeared so didn't give me any reason to despise her the way I do my biological parents. Alexi comes back and sits opposite me on the L shaped couch, giving me plenty of space, hunched forward as he holds his glass in his two hands and swirls it slowly. His eyes downcast on his liquid refreshment as though he is deep in thought. ''Nice guy. And your mother?'' Really? Alexi is a nosey bastard. He likes to know everything about everyone and anything. It's tiring, and I am not naïve. I know he collects information to store in that fast brain of his that he can use at another time. Usually to get in your head or under your skin; I have seen him do it with ease. ''Dead. She was a heroin addict, and she died at my feet when I was fifteen.'' Actually, on the floor a few feet away, but who's picking apart the details. Stupid bitch did it to herself and I watched her die with no sense of remorse at all. Another little tingle of bitterness about a past I have no space for hits me low in the gut and I swallow it away with the memory. People just use you and discard you anyway, it's easier to cut off all emotional ties and go it alone. Her death gave me some sort of freedom in a way. One less controlling bastard to use me as a punching bag. ''Jesus!'' Alexi, for the first time ever, has an actual facial expression that I recognise. He looks momentarily sympathetic, a little surprised and I try to ignore it. Same as the moment of gentle, it throws me and I look anywhere but at him. His mask is slipping, and I wonder if it's because he has been around me for weeks now and is starting to relax, or if it is because he is tired and home and lets it slide occasionally. ''I don't care. She wasn't worth much as family. I'm better off without those sorts of ties to people, they just hinder you and drag you down.'' Story of my life! ''Not all families do that … Mine are close. All of us, even the ones who stay out of this side of the business. My twin and my cousins are my closest friends and I trust no one outside of my bloodline, I care about them and I work very hard to protect all of them, so I can't imagine what being alone must have been like and losing your mother so young.'' Alexi sits back propping his feet on the table and I notice he has no shoes on, only black socks and it's weirdly informal somehow. As is the frank and open way he's telling me things I never expected him to share with me. I wonder if he's softening towards me a little after all and it's prompted this couch sharing thing he has going on. It's surreal and a little disarming. ''Believe me, losing her was the best thing that could have happened to me and leaving that wretched country was the second. I learned I had to rely on myself and myself alone. People don't give a shit about you, only what you can do for them. Present company included, but it's okay because I know that's the reality of life, and I am fine with it. I know where I stand with you and what is expected of me.'' It's why I feel safe here with him. He laid down the rules and the boundaries, and he has stuck to them. He cohabits and yet doesn't touch me. I don't ever recall a man in my entire existence who treated me as anything other than a fuck. Sharing space meant my body was theirs to touch in any way they saw fit, and yet he has had me here for weeks and nothing has happened. Alexi looks pensive for a moment and sighs. ''Tonight wasn't meant to happen that way—I apologise. I should have had more control of the situation and followed him sooner. I didn't think he would have the balls to try and pull a stunt like that; he knows me well enough to be thankful his dick is still attached right now. I realised when I walked into the men's and he wasn't there … Contrary to what you might think of our arrangement I take care of my own, even if all you are to me is a business asset.'' It is odd how the man in such few words can both make me feel better and worse in one go. I need to stop caring about anything he says or does because it's just exhausting, and I shouldn't put any hopes on being more than a possession. Even if it's not a sexual one. ''Clearly.'' I gesture around my abode, knowing fine well he didn't have to give me somewhere to live when he took me on, and he's paid me generously on top of that since I got here. I don't have any needs that aren't being met, except one. It still bites though that he did remind me that all I am to him is a business acquisition; it somehow smarts a little more than it should. Leaving an achy lump in my gut that won't shift. ''I know I'm not an easy guy to talk to, but if you need me to listen I will.'' Another moment of something else sparking through and I realise I don't like these soft Alexi hints. That's what's throwing me off. I prefer the cold bastard who lets you know exactly where you stand and doesn't care if you hate him for it. He doesn't give a shit and I like the fact I know it and can just not give a shit either. This right here though, hints of caring or something … it's making me uneasy and I start to get up to leave before this turns into a weird tear fest of touchy-feely. I don't fancy sitting in a sharing circle and letting out our deepest, darkest feelings. I feel antsy and suspicious and I know I am running because quite frankly, this kind of shit scares me witless. I don't like people prying or getting too cosy and cuddly with me, it makes me nervous and mistrustful. I am not one for all that ''Kumbaya'' round a campfire nonsense. ''I don't need a shrink or an ear to bend. I need sleep and some concealer to get through the day. Goodnight Carrero, or good morning, whatever.'' The best thing will be to go to bed and cut this conversation right now. Leave him to his gin. ''London?'' He stops me as I wriggle off the couch without flashing him any more than I have to. He doesn't bother to avert his eyes though and I hate that fucking name. Irritation rising fast in my stomach. He uses it sporadically—I think probably just to annoy me and I turn on him moodily. ''What?'' ''You can trust me … to an extent.'' He just looks strange. Like he is going for sincere, but something does not quite sit right with me. HA FUCKING HA! I don't know if that's a joke or just irony. He's the last person in the world I would trust with anything. Even I am not that dumb to believe Mr Player's smooth tongue; he works and coerces people every day and this right here is just another game to him. I click as I realise the soft hints are really manipulated drop attacks and suddenly it is all coming into focus with amazing clarity. He's trying to get in and under my wall and I can't believe I was so stupid I didn't see it until this very moment, but now it's crystal clear in one little sentence. He just played me for information he couldn't dig up by himself and I walked into it like a goddamn amateur. He said it himself. His man couldn't dig up info on me before coming to the USA and Carrero is a nosey fuck who needs to know everything about everything. That sneaky Arsehole. You get one Carrero … Not again. I feel so stupid that I almost fell for it. In fact, I DID fall for it. Arsehole. Utter Prick. Carrero is a devious snake, and he probably gives no more shits about tonight than he does about some random girl on the street going through the same ordeal. It's all just a gameplay and another level of how he operates. He wanted my little sad backstory and now he has it, and I am left furious that he would pull the gentle hero card while I am in a fragile state. If that's the way you want to play, then two can play at the nice game. I'm going to be so goddamn adoring and puppyeyed you are going to think I genuinely like you. See what I can extract from that stiff exterior and learn about you. If he thinks I am going to roll over and be manipulated by him then he has another thing coming. Let the war begin. Wanker!

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