I'll Be Alone

Out of habit, Carroll ruffled my hair. He lifted my chin and said, "What happened? Why are you unhappy?" I thought for a while before asking with my gaze on the gloomy sky, "Is there a jinx?" "No," Carroll answered decidedly and pulled me on his lap. "If there were, the world would be chaotic. If you were the jinx, you could kill anyone at will." I was speechless. I started a grim topic, but Carroll made it ridiculous.  However, this answer did amuse me.  With my head on his shoulder, I said in a low voice, "Carroll, all of my family estranges me. If you don't want me, I will become desolate." I meant what I said. In the past, there was Mrs. Laura. However, I couldn't go back to Pheonix Village anymore. Carroll was all I had now.  No, there was YELLOW too, but Wolfie didn't belong to me. Sighing, I drew circles on Carroll's Adam's apple with one finger. I could imagine how I would die alone decades of years later.  Carroll lowered his head, prickled my neck with his stubble, and said i