Chapter 20 Jealousy

　　I couldn't take it anymore. These days, I barely see Redmond. 　　We hardly have any intimate moments. 　　If I don't get to the bottom of this, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. 　　I decided today was the day to confront him, to find out why he's been avoiding me. 　　What if—just what if—he had someone else? What should I do then? 　　Give up? Maybe, but I refuse to share him with anyone else. 　　Even though I like him so much, even though he's my mate, I can't stand the thought of it. 　　So, I prepared a special lunch for Raymond, hoping to surprise him at work. 　　I grabbed his business card from the bedside drawer and headed to his company. 　　On the way there, my heart raced with nerves. How should I ask him about this? 　　Should I go straight to the point and ask why he's been so distant lately? 　　Or should I be more subtle and ask what he's been busy with recently? 　　Oh my god, I'm losing it. Why am I so conflicted? 　　When I arrived at his company, I told the receptionist I was his wi