Chapter 29 : Incoming Call

Theodora's POV I felt so fucking sick to my stomach. A stone weighing in my chest. My shoulders were sore from how hard I was weeping. My spine curled forward until I was hugging my knees to my chest. I prayed that my parents were okay. But I didn't know for sure. I just know that I could have done something. Jumped off the gangway and saved them the way I couldn't save my platoon. But Mads didn't let me. He ripped me backward, feet stumbling into his arms, holding me down as I wailed. But now all that grief felt numb. I felt numb. The glass of starshine on my desk was still untouched. I poured it for myself, but before I could drink it to quell the shakes, I fell over myself and dry-heaved into the garbage can. Nothing came up, but my stomach lurched and lurched. Painfully clenching my chest. I couldn't even vomit. All I did was cry so hard I couldn't see straight. A headache pounding my temples. Fighting the abyss that nipped at my ankles, tempting me to plummet into th