Chapter 65

　　Finally reaching our bedroom. I tried to open it quietly. But, it would not budge. I guess Zaden still don't want me here. 　　Hurt. 　　Pain. 　　Emptiness. 　　That's what I am feeling from his behaviour. He clearly doesn't want me, but I thought our relationship have improved enough to tolerate each other's presence. 　　Turning around I entered another bedroom. 　　It was past midnight, and I was still awake. Closing a book. I sigh and rub my eyes. Why could not I fall asleep?Deciding to get some fresh air, I walked to the balcony. The cold night breeze made me sneeze instantly. 　　Taking a seat, I opened my book again and continued reading. But my small concentration did not last long. Suddenly I felt as if my whole body was burning in pain, as if thousands of needles were trying to peirce my body and soul. The Rhea was feeling the same. She was howling in my mind. 　　I can't be in my heat. 　　This isn't how you feel during the heat. This feeling is something else. 　　Maybe my body desire for m