CHAPTER 40

'What's that?' 'I need you to take a pregnancy test.' I couldn't believe my ears. A pregnancy test for what? I wasn't pregnant. Was I? 'Emma, did you hear me?' 'Yes. I'll do it when I wake up again.' 'I love you, baby.' 'I love you, too.' I fell back asleep as soon as we hung up. I finally managed to get out of the room. It was the only place I wanted to be, in the room with fresh air and without noise. I called over a private assistant so she could fetch me a pregnancy test. God knew how many scandals and headlines would erupt if I were to walk into a pharmacy or supermarket and buy myself a test. The press had been very interested in me lately and would follow me to the ends of the earth just for a story. The test was dropped off to my room and I read the directions in a blur, panicking. If there was one line that indicated negative. If there were two that meant positive. I was low-key praying for two. I peed in a throw away cup and inserted the stick in until it penetrated