Chapter 18 Seventeen

"Ash? What's wrong?" Seth turned to me when he noticed that I made a full stop. My knees began shaking and I can feel my stomach turning as anxiety eats my half. My breathing heavied and I can hear my heartbeat right in my ears. Drumming fast and loud. My wolf whines and prays that I shouldn't go inside, she's afraid to lose her mate tonight. 'Are you okay? Why are you scared?' I jumped when I heard Aiden on my mind. I guess he's still in the office and the wolf-proof room didn't stop the mate's bond from flowing my emotions to him. I embraced myself and started calming down. I should block my feelings to stop it from going through him. Once I succeeded, I responded to him. 'I'm fine. I almost tripped, that's all.' I lied. The second time. It's necessary at the moment to lie to him or else he'll bust out of that room and might witness what is about to happen. I can't deny my responsibility for the pack, this is the first time that Aiden let me do something for his pack and I can't mess it up. "What?" Seth looked at me while frowning. "You didn't trip. Why's Aiden nagging at me?" Seth exclaimed, Aiden had reached him, too. I closed the gap between us and held his hand. I looked him straight into his eyes. "Remember when you said your loyalty stands with me?" I said, ignoring his previous question. "Yeah? What's wrong?" "I don't know yet but if something happens, I expect you to be true to your words and keep anything just between us two." Seth frowned, confused from what's happening but nodded at last that made me sigh. "I'll keep my word." he said and I let go of his arms. "Let's go." I said and walked passed him, Seth following me right after. We started walking again and every step I did make my heart go insane. I focused on controlling its emotions, making sure that nothing will be felt by Aiden. Seth opened the front door for me and I smelt something different. A scent that can make me feel sad or in sorrow. I figured this is the scent of a male wolf that had lost its mate. Titus. I made sure to take down notes of what I'm discovering which was connected with my abnormality. Right now, first, I can distinguish a mateless wolf and that's an advantage. Second, I can only smell them when I'm a few meters away. This can be a disadvantage because I will have a short time to run away IF they can smell me the same. We reached the living room and we saw Titus with his head down in his hands. He is not crying from his loss but he is mourning inside. I stopped with a given distance, waiting for him to smell my abnormality but he just stayed his head down. I frowned. Can't he smell me? "Titus. Our Luna wants to sympathize with your loss." I looked at Seth and then back to Titus who slowly looked up at us. He's not too old but older than me. Probably in his early thirties. He looked at Seth first and then to me. His eyes enlarged as his gaze placed on me. I swallow hard and realize he probably felt something. He can't smell me then but he must know what I am once he saw me. That expression tells me he does. He slowly stood up and walked closer to me. I gulped as I gave Seth a nervous look before looking back to Titus. In an instant, he is now in front of me. He used his inhuman speed to come closer to me and horror starts building within me. "Hey!" it was Seth's fast reaction that stopped him just feet away. Seth's hand was on Titus' chest and trying to stop him from getting any closer than he is now. His voice raised but not a yell. "What's wrong with you?" he asked Titus while the latter never took his eyes off me. He almost looked crazy with disbelief in his eyes. I tried calming myself, making sure I'm blocking my fear away from Aiden. "She's Alpha Aiden's mate and our pack's Luna. You! Should show your respects." Seth growled emphasizing the last sentences. Titus glanced at Seth before shaking his head and inhaled hastily. He looked at me again and this time his eyes softened. I didn't let my guard down. Ready to fight back if needed. "I'm sorry... Luna." he bowed his head slightly but never took his gaze from mine. He reached for my hand, probably going to kiss the back of my hand for respect but when he held it, he started trembling. "This is incredible. I can feel Sharma just from touching you." he smirked but with sorrow evident in his eyes. He let go of my hand when Seth snatched it away from him. "What the hell-" Seth was about to throw at him but Titus cut him off. I can no longer feel my own feet. I put my hand on Seth's shoulder for support because my knees might give up any moment. "You don't know?" Titus said as he looked at Seth. My breath is hitching and I can only hear my heartbeat loud with their voices as background noise. "Of course you wouldn't." He smirked at him before turning to face me again. "Know what?" Seth snapped and snarled at him. "Stay where you are." He warned when Titus tried to take a step closer. I looked at Titus with fear evident in my eyes. He's gonna say it and Seth will know. I repeated that over and over again in my head to expect what will happen next. I started preparing myself for the possible outcome. "Our Luna is a stealer." He said with gritted teeth. Seth moved away from me a bit just to see my face. I stood there frozen while two pairs of eyes examined my reaction. I can feel the side of my eyes burning from threatening tears. I can't see what exactly Seth was thinking. His face didn't look at me with dismay nor disgust just curiosity and disbelief. Titus on the other hand has a smirk on his face while his eyes are soft and gentle just like how Aiden looks at me. His gaze is just like how one wolf will look at its mate. I am blocking my emotions from Aiden. I already know that things like this will happen but I didn't think through many ways to handle the situation. I tried collecting myself and inhaled slowly. I'm still their Luna and my being a stealer doesn't change that fact. I'm Aiden's mate and I'm not tricking anyone. Not stealing him. He is mine and I am his. I don't have any evidence for that but I knew I should at least try to prove it. "Why don't we have a sit first?" I said in a calm, almost trembling voice. Seth still watched me with the same face while Titus smiled a little before facing his back at us to walk and take a seat. Once Titus is seated, I looked at Seth again and gave him a weak smile. 'Keep your words and trust me.' I said and he snapped out of his shock before nodding slowly and giving way for me to have a sit. The farthest chair from Titus is where I sat. Seth taking the one next to mine. We're both looking at Titus and I noticed that his hand that touched mine is trembling a little. 'Is what he said true?' It was Seth. I looked at him and nodded. He sighed before shaking his head slowly and fixed his eyes on Titus. 'You're already giving me a test of loyalty with this.' he said again. I ignored him and exhaled carefully. "I meant no harm here." I started, fixating my eyes on Titus. "You are right but I'm not doing anything wrong." I wanted to assure them but I don't know how. I got no reaction from them both so I just sighed. Not sure what to say next. "You're a stealer. Your kind was forgotten by most but this pack will never forget. Are you even our true Luna?" "Watch it, Titus." Seth growled and I'm amused by how protective he still is with me without an ounce of doubt. "It's okay," I said to Seth and turned to Titus. "I understand your feelings but I didn't come here with harm in mind. I'm Aiden's mate and my wolf's abnormality has nothing to do with it. The only thing I wanted is for you to not try and steal me from my mate." Titus chuckled lightly, amused by my words. My jaw tightened as I felt irritated from his response. "I loved Sharma and I won't settle with a replica of emotions flowing from you. You do feel like her, you do give me chill as she does but no, you are not her and I won't be tricked." "I'm not tricking anybody." I snarled through gritted teeth. I hate to be judged and right now I'm having a piece of it. "We can't be sure of that. What will Alpha Aiden do to you once he found out? You don't think he'll believe your words, right?" My wolf growled at him and that came out of my lips. He chuckled again. "Respect your Luna!" Seth said, taking my side. "I am not tricking Aiden." "Then let's tell him." I didn't have the words to respond to that. Am I ready? But I feel I am not. I'm far from ready because a part of me knew that Aiden will be furious. And I don't know what will happen to me once he knew what I am. It gave me chills just to think of the worst-case scenario. "See my point? Well, I'm not in the mood to wreck my Alpha's world. Males like me who lost their mates were out there to find you. Some rogues even look for a stealer like you to feel alive again. But for me, I can keep to myself what I found out tonight." I looked at Seth when he catches my gaze. 'Is it that bad for Aiden to know?' he asked. 'You don't need to owe anyone.' 'I'm not sure yet.' "I'll give you my word if you'll give the favor back, Luna." "My Luna won't do whatever your filthy mouth says." Seth snarled at him. I placed my hand on his arm without breaking eye contact with Titus. "She is your Luna but not mine. At least not yet. I'm not sure if she is." His words pricked my heart and I can feel the bitterness from it. One of my mate's wolf just rejected me as their Luna. Another of my fears just came true. "What do you want?" I decided to finish this once and for all. "I won't say a word to my Alpha about this. I'll even offer you more knowledge about stealers if you'll agree to my terms." My heart is thumping and beating loud in my chest. Am I doing the right thing? I had the urge to just say what I am to Aiden. My wolf even assures me that he will understand. That his wolf and she loves each other truly. But in the end, I didn't listen. I decided to hear what Titus wanted. "What do you want in return?" I said in almost a whisper. Seth hissed on my side as he leaned against the chair. He's not happy with the turnouts. "Convince Alpha Aiden to let me keep my position as the guard's head." Seth hissed hastily again and gawked at Titus "You greedy dog!" Seth growled at Titus before snapping his head to me. "He is just using you! Don't listen to him and his selfishness! We're telling Aiden about your case and he'll understand." "You're not sure he will, right?" Titus said to me, not giving any attention to Seth at all. "Hear me out. I'm not doing this out of greed. I lost my mate and losing my position would just give me free time to mourn over her. I'm not interested in stealing you from my Alpha, I'm not crazy to do that. All I wanted is to keep my place, even just for a few months. To get busy. I... I can't live without Sharma while having nothing to do at all." I watched his face and his voice is sincere. 'Don't believe him!' Seth said. 'We can't tell Aiden that I'm a stealer. I have no choice.' I replied. He frowned at me and snorted. 'At least give it some thought. Let's talk this through first.' What he suggests is reasonable. That is better than making rapid decisions. "Let me think it through." I said. Seth shifted on his seat, not comfortable with the situation. I am, too but I tried to calm my mind at least. "For how long? In two days, I'll be out of the council. I don't have the time." He said calmly. I examined his reaction, no sign of deception can be traced in his face. I am hesitating but what more can I do? Any minute now, Aiden and Nick might be finished with their meeting. If I don't have enough time to think, Titus doesn't have enough time to wait, too. "I'll try to talk it out with Aiden tonight. You'll have the news tomorrow." "Tomorrow is your introduction ceremony, Luna." Seth raised her brows as he reminded me of tomorrow's event. Damn. I forgot. 'You can't fight with Aiden tonight. He will be furious if you proposed to consider this dog.' I can hear Seth hissing as he mind linked me. I gaped at him, trying to think this through. He is right though I can't see any ways to do. If I won't help Titus with his proposition, then he'll tell Aiden about my abnormality. The worse might come for me so either way, Aiden and I will still end up fighting later. I am just choosing the easiest way which-at the moment-is agreeing with Titus. I ignored Seth and looked at Titus who's waiting for my reply. "I'll give you news tomorrow. But what if I can't convince Aiden?" "Then I'm sorry but I needed to tell him what I found out tonight." A cold shiver runs down my spine with his words. I suddenly felt pressured in convincing Aiden if I wanted to survive the day. The chance to respond to him was impossible now because Aiden just walked out of a door which was Titus's office. 'Keep your word.' I said to Seth as I looked at Aiden's glinting eyes though his face was kept serious and strict. 'We need to talk about this later.' He replied and I heard him sigh. I turned to Titus and stood up, ready to go. "I'm so sorry for your loss." I said and gave him a fake short smile. I looked at Seth, sending him a message that we both need to head out first. He stood up and looked at Titus then to Aiden. "We'll be outside." I said to Aiden before he could even come near me. He frowned but nodded anyway. Once outside the house, Seth and I almost run back to the car. I slide up to the backseat while he sat back to where he was seated, beside the driver's seat. "What the hell? Are you a stealer?!" he exclaimed as soon as the car's door was closed. His voice is low but with emphasis. "Yes, yes, I am. God! What should I do!?" I put my hands on my head and closed my eyes. "How can I be sure you are not..." He didn't continue his phrase but I already knew what he meant. "Of course not. I just found out about my abnormality when I undergo the mapping. Aiden is the one who found me, too. Not the other way around. I'm not tricking him or trying to steal him. I'm his true mate." I scowled at the last words. Getting irritated by explaining myself when I never did anything wrong. "Fine! But why didn't you tell him? He should be the first to know."