Chapter 07

"Your thoughts are correct Ryan. She s your mother." Dad? Can he read my thoughts? How did he know? She s my mother……. So gorgeous.... But where is she? "She s beautiful" I smiled and sat next to my father. I looked at him and saw his eyes were red. Was he crying? But he smiled as he heard what I said. "Yeah, she s the most beautiful woman" He said while hiding his sadness. "Where is she dad?" I asked as he looked at me. I felt sadness and at the same time fear. For some unknown reason I didn t want to hear the answer for my question…… Because I have never seen her in my life. "Gone" He simply said and closed his eyes. Gone? Where? My eyes became red. She s dead… Wasn t she? "Dad.." I spoke but he cut me off with words. "Go now. You ll be late" I nodded at him and got up to leave but he spoke again. "Don t be like me Ryan.. You will suffer" What? Why? I stopped and looked at him because I wanted an explanation for that. "What do you mean?" I asked again because I didn t get what he said. "You ll know" With that he stood up and went into the bathroom. I stayed a few minutes there and left. I went to the office and saw Chris was already there while playing games on his phone. "What are you doing in my fucking office?" I shouted at him as he gasped and stood up. "Fuck.. You scared me" I ignored him and took off my coat and threw it on to his face as I went and sat down on my chair. "What the fuck Ryan?" He shouted and threw my coat on the sofa. "Why are you here?" I asked him because I wanted to know what he wanted this time. "I heard that you re going to have a baby with a surrogate" He said with a serious tone and came towards me. "Hmm" I responded to him. "Why did you agree?" I knew he was worried about me. "I have no choice and it was all arranged by grandma" I sighed and looked at him. "You know about that woman?" He asked me and again my heart began to hurt. Shit. How could she affect me this much. I only saw her two times. "Grandma told me some information about her," I said to him as he shook his head. "Man. Why do you always listen to grandma? She s my grandma too but you know that I don t like her that much" I knew Chris doesn t like grandma that much because he knew something but he never mentioned it to me. "I don t know." I simply said and started to get ready for the meeting. "Trust me you will miss so many valuable things because of her." I looked at Chris and saw the seriousness of his face. He was warning me. I wanted to speak but he turned around and left. What did he even mean? So many valuable things? Urghh. Just forget what that idiot said. ……………. Time passed and it s already been two months. I wanted to see her but grandma didn t let me everytime I asked for permission. I have no idea but she didn t let me see her. Sometimes I was curious about grandma s behaviour. I asked grandma to pay the full amount of money after the day I slept with her and grandma agreed for that. I was selfish and didn t want to see her with her boyfriend but I have no heart to do that. He had cancer and I knew how they suffered so I decided to give up on her and let her live happily with her boyfriend because she loved him so much and even sold her body to a man that she never knew. But there was always a strange feeling with me about her boyfriend and his cancer. So I decided to go to the hospital but I couldn t find him. I even asked doctors. Did she lie? With that thought I walked through the hospital cancer patients area and looked for him again. While I was searching for her boyfriend I saw a little boy and he had every fucking feature as her. Grey eyes and light brown hair. He was just so fucking cute and I really felt love for him. I watched him as he played with his friends smiling but I felt sad because he was also a cancer patient. Suddenly, he stopped playing and looked at me. Damn those eyes. Very fucking similar to her. For some unknown reason I felt my heart ache for this little boy. He looked at me and gave me a big bright smile. My heart melted as I saw his smile. I also smiled at him. I have never smiled at someone that I never knew but unintentionally I smiled at him. I wanted to talk to him so I slowly walked towards him as he took a ball and came towards me but my phone rang and I answered the call. "She s pregnant. Come home now" It was my grandma s voice. My heart began to beat so fast and I felt happiness inside of me. I m going to be a father. "I will come to see you again." I spoke loudly. The boy stopped and smiled brightly at me and nodded. "I will wait for you sir, but why are you so happy?" Damn this little kid. He could even tell that I m happy. I smiled at him and spoke again. "I m going to be a father." I saw the smile on his face and it was just so fucking beautiful. "Congratulations sir" He spoke as he waved his hand. I smiled and nodded because he s the first one who congrats me. " What is your name?" I asked him. "Noah" I smiled at him and nodded. "Wait for me Noah" I said as I turned around to leave. "I will" I heard him say and at the same time I felt sadness. I turned back and saw he was still looking at my direction while smiling. I waved my hand and smiled as he turned and started to play with his friends again. What a cute boy…. I came home and saw everyone was there. I walked and sat beside grandma. "Why did you go to hospital Ryan?" I heard my grandma s angry voice as she spoke. I was shocked. How did she know? "I..I went.." I wanted to say something but her angry voice shocked me. "I know why you went there. Why didn t you listen to my words? Why are you searching for that woman s boyfriend?" What the hell? Why is she angry? "You don t have to worry about anything. I told you before. I have paid all her money and she will take care of her man. Just listen to my words and don t go against it." She s different today. Why was that? Grandma never spoke like this before… I looked at her face and saw the furious expression and the hatred. What the fuck? "Alright just forget it now… You know she s already two months pregnant." Grandma sighed and spoke with her low voice but I don t know why I felt something is not right. "Can I see her?" I asked again because I wanted to know her answer. She looked at me for some time and shook her head. "Listen to me Ray. Didn t I explain what kind of woman she is?" Yeah she explained. I nodded at her and decided to listen to her. "You re going to be a father. Congratulations to my baby boy" With that she smiled and hugged me but I didn t feel happy like I felt before when that little kid said that to me. I shook my head and let go of that thought as I hugged grandma back. ……….. Two months have passed and my baby is growing inside of her. I wanted to see her and feel my baby inside of her. I want to listen to the voices that he makes inside of his mommy s belly. I wanted to feel him while he s moving but grandma didn t let me and I had countless hours in the office. I had to deal with five more companies at the same time and didn t even have time to sleep. I couldn t even go and see that little boy. Shit.. Fuck this works. Then I received a call from my dad. "Hello dad." I spoke quickly. "Ryan, we have to go to Korea for 4 months. It s an emergency. Something has happened." What for fucking four months? What the fuck… "Dad can t we send anyone? Because I don t think I can go" I said and my head hurts because of these shitty things. "No.. You have to go. You should definitely go there and get ready. We are going tonight." Fuck… Annoying fuckers can t even do a shit correctly. Didn t we send one of our best teams there? Shit. I hung up the call and left the office as I asked Chris to take care of everything while I was away.