Chapter 14

I woke up and it s already two in the evening. I looked around and noticed that the bastard was already gone. I slowly got down from the bed and walked towards the bathroom. As I entered the bathroom I looked at myself via the mirror. Hickeys filled the body with messy hair. I sighed and went under the shower as I sat down on the cold floor while hugging my knees. I couldn t close my eyes because my mind was still filled with Noah s smile. Now I know that my baby lives a luxurious life because he's a member of the Winston family but what about my lost brother? He was only seven… I was all alone over these years. The painful memories of three years ago came into my mind. After I left where I lived with my brother and my house. No… Don t think now. I forced myself to bury those painful memories inside of me again. I stood up and quickly showered before going out of the bathroom. As I came out of the bathroom I looked for my clothes but all of them were torn. That bastard…. Then I saw a closet and I walked towards it as I opened the doors. Only male clothes. Urghh.. Shirts and trousers. I sighed and took a black shirt out and wore it quickly. Then I saw the skirt I was wearing was in the corner of the room I went to and picked it up. I sighed. Thank god, Not damaged. I wore it quickly and left the room. I didn t have my phone or purse with me and I remembered I left it before escaping from that old pervert. My heart tightened as I remembered what happened yesterday night. I walked towards the room where that man forced himself on me and I entered, no one was there so I quickly looked for my purse and phone. I let out a deep breath as I saw my purse and phone. I quickly grabbed it and left the room. I never thought Mila would betray me and tried to sell me to an old man. How could she? She was my only friend I had over these years. I came here because of her. I ll deal with her. With that thought I went to my old house. Where I lived with my brother. Tears rolled down as I saw my old house. Nothing has changed. I took the keys out and unlocked the door. I walked into the house and went straight to Noah s room. I sat on his bed and buried my face in my palms "I miss you so much. I m sorry darling" I sobbed hard and let my pain come out. Suddenly, I remembered Noah s note. He has mentioned a man that he waited for. Noah had a letter for him inside of his notebook but he forbiddened me for opening it. Urghh.. Where can I find him without even knowing his name? After some time I went to my room and changed into my clothes that I left three years ago. After a few hours I left my old house that was filled with beautiful and painful memories. Then I went straight to the apartment that I currently live in. ……………………. ~ Ryan ~ Fuck.. Why did I rape her? I was fucking rough and she was crying. Shit.. When did I become a fucking beast as she said. I lost my sanity as I heard her call me a heartless beast and monster. She even called me murder and why the hell was that? I left her without even thinking about her. Shit.. her clothes were torn by me. I was in my office but I can t get her out of my fucking mind. I can t even focus on any fucking work. What did she do to me? Fuck.. am I in love with her? Yes. I m in love with her from the fucking first day I saw her. She was the first woman who treated me like that, She even fucking slapped me twice and called my name without even thinking. Fuck.. She s not afraid of me, my status and the power I possess in this country. She clearly knew who I was yet she shouted and slapped me as she tore the check I gave her. I was really shocked by her actions and I can t believe she was a cheap woman as grandma mentioned. She didn t give fuck about money and asked me to give her baby back. I still couldn't understand some things she told me. She said I threatened her. What the fuck was that I didn t even know and She said I owe her two fucking lives. "Yoo Ryan what happened yesterday?" I was pulled back from my thoughts by Chris s voice. I looked at him and he was already in front of me. Fuck I didn t even hear him. "Where did you find that woman?" I asked him as he looked at me with a shocked face. "What? I didn t find a woman. How can I send a woman? I didn t even know where the fuck were you" My heart stopped for a moment. Didn t he send her? So she s not a prostitute. My heart tightened because of how I treated her in the morning and how I call her a prostitute. Fuck…... I looked at the time and it was already three thirty in the evening. She has definitely gone back right? FUCK. I heard Chris s phone was ringing but I didn t care because my mind was filled with her sleeping face and her tears that I caused her. The way she told me that she hates me… I don t want to think about it because my heart fucking hurts. "She s back" I heard Chris s voice and I looked at him. "Julianna.. Noah s sister is back. The old man who talked to me that day.. He was the one who called me" My heart began to beat so fast. Is she back? It s been three years. I can t understand why am I attracted to this Noah s sister and I was fucking curious about her. Deep inside of my heart always tells me that Noah s sister is the same woman as the woman I unintentionally fell in love with but I know it was fucking impossible and It can t be her. "Where is she?" I asked him as shook his head. What the fuck that means? "He said he saw her while she s leaving the house," I sighed. Again? I missed her. Shit.. "It doesn t matter. We can find her because she s already come back" I nodded at him. I will definitely find and take what Noah left for me with her. I grabbed my phone to call Noel and saw 10 missed calls from Noel. Fuck. Shit. I forgot to check the phone. I immediately called back and he answered the phone with the first ring. "Baby.." I spoke but I was cut off by his angry childish voice. "No daddy. You re a liar. You didn t come home last night" I sighed. Shit.. How am I going to coax this child now? "I had so much work Noel. Daddy s sorry okay? You know I bought so many chocolates for you" I lied to him. Urghh This child is making things hard for me just like his mother. "You re lying daddy but it s okay. You come home early and bring a big chocolate bag" With that he just hung up the call. Urghh. This kid… "Chris. Take care of these things I m going home" I got up and left because I wanted to see my son as soon as possible. "Alright" I heard Chris shouted with annoyance. I wanted to let my son know that his mommy is back but I can t do it because I m still not sure about her character. Noel always wanted his mother but he didn t show it but I knew him too well because when I was his age I also wanted my mother so I don t want my son to grow up without his mother and it felt like a missing part of our soul. I knew that feeling very well because I also grew up without my mother.