  "What are you saying? Don't lead me,&quot; I replied softly, which made her wince even though tears were still dripping down her cheeks.
  &quot;Why? Why don't I take the lead? Are you afraid? What are you afraid of?&quot;
  "I don't know where the questions you're asking are coming from." I stepped on my foot to leave in front of her but she grabbed my arm. She pushed me towards the railings, but I didn't feel any pain even though she pushed me with force. "What do you need from me?" I lost my temper and raised my voice when I asked her a question.
  &quot;Why do you want to leave? Are you running away? From what?&quot; she asked as if she was challenging for reasons I don't know. &quot;You are not like this. Your personality is not like this, but why do you seem to be different now? Are you brave now? Do you think you're cool?&quot;
  I gulped and averted my eyes from her. My jaw tig

  I'm currently sitting next to Jas's bed, staring into his face. He was still not awake, but his rash had vanished and his skin was still red. I was the only one keeping an eye on him. I'm not sure where Baki went when she left me on the rooftop, and I'm not sure if Doctor Bry will return.
  Jas's allergies are having a bad effect now so the doctor told me to expect that I will have to wait a little longer for Jas to wake up again. I didn&quot;t know what to do at these times and all I could think of was to see his eyes open and smiling.
  It was clear to me why it happened to him. I became selfish and I deeply regretted not thinking about the things that could have affected him. I didn't believe my impression that he liked me as well, so I didn't assume it was, and that may be why I didn't consider what would happen to him.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> 
  I desperately wanted hi

  While waiting for the doctor assigned to Jas to arrive, I'm feeling anxious outside his hospital room. His image kept resurfacing in my memory, and I couldn't help but recall what he looked like in my apartment earlier.
  His allergies are worse now and because of my anxiety, I have no one to call but Doctor Bry. He immediately sent an ambulance and Jas had lost consciousness on my shoulder.
  His body had a lot of rashes and everything was red. I wanted to cry and blame myself for what had happened to him, but nothing came out of my eyes that made my feelings worse. I want to talk to someone so that I can release the pain I am feeling, but I feel like I am alone again. I knew Aly was asleep so I didn't want to call her and I might disturb her.
  "Everything will be fine too," I convinced myself. I know how strong he is and I am confident that he will overcome it. My only fear is that 

"What are you saying? Don't lead me,&quot; I replied softly, which made her wince even though tears were still dripping down her cheeks.
  &quot;Why? Why don't I take the lead? Are you afraid? What are you afraid of?&quot;
  "I don't know where the questions you're asking are coming from." I stepped on my foot to leave in front of her but she grabbed my arm. She pushed me towards the railings, but I didn't feel any pain even though she pushed me with force. "What do you need from me?" I lost my temper and raised my voice when I asked her a question.
  &quot;Why do you want to leave? Are you running away? From what?&quot; she asked as if she was challenging for reasons I don't know. &quot;You are not like this. Your personality is not like this, but why do you seem to be different now? Are you brave now? Do you think you're cool?&quot;
  I gulped and averted my eyes from her. My jaw tightened because of holding back from shouting at her. When I looked back at her again, one of her e

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