Chapter 30

Initially, I had hoped for a cure, so I went along with the treatment. Now, I didn't have any hope or the drive anymore. Every time I got my hopes up, all I got back was disappointment. To me, if there was no hope, there would be no room for disappointment. George gave me a surprised look and asked gently, "Samuel, tell me why you don't want to treat your disease?" I replied, "There's no cure, so I don't want to let myself down." George fell silent for a moment and smiled at me before he said, "If you don't give it a try, how would you know there's no hope?" I lowered my head and didn't respond to him. George advised, "Give it a try. This is the latest treatment option, and it definitely wouldn't have any problems." I took a deep breath and stared at George. Then, I asked, "Tell me the truth. Am I a test subject for this treatment?" Upon hearing that, George didn't say anything. I chuckled and shook my head. "I knew it!" Being a test subject meant that I was part of an exper