Chapter 100

What they say is walking away from the person you love is the hardest thing or decision that is hard to make. You don't know how to stop your feet every time it wants to stop walking away from the person you love. You can't hold the steering wheel because it's like a car driving away. I look away while boarding the plane. How many times have I told myself that maybe I was just in a hurry and I don't want to leave but no matter what I hold on to my feet it's like they have their brains and know what to do? Thinking about Turstin, I keep asking myself when it all started? When did my heart start beating for him? I want to laugh but I'm holding it back. When was the farewell sweet? Isn't it supposed to be a bitter goodbye? I dropped my head out the window. Now I think that Turstin and I have nothing else in common because of our daily quarrels every time Winter is with us. Conceivably, that's where it all started? I touch my stomach. I don't know if I will be able to carry the child w