  &quot;I had to wake up early to paint that smile I'm seeing on your face now. It s been long since I last saw it. Good morning, Ya Fareeda.&quot; She greeted and Fareeda shook her head, Nana will always be Nana, and nothing you will do or say will change her from being herself.
  &quot;You ll always be like this, Nana. Thank you for working so hard to see this smile on my face, I love you.&quot; She hugged her lightly and Nana screamed before she ran out of her hold and sat at the opposite sofa from her.
  &quot;Whenever you say you love me, I just have to wait because I'd have to suffer from you that day. Now, where is your husband? You should eat together with him, I cooked for the two of you.&quot; Nana began to look around as if Mujaheed could magically come out of the four walls confining the rooms.
  &quot;He s not here since Subh Salah, I think he's at the gate. If you need some

  Nana shook her head while she cleared her tears away, &quot;No, but there were times when she complains of lower abdominal pain. But Ya Mujaheed, it has never become this worse.&quot;
  Dr Haris sighed and pinched the bridge between his eyes, &quot;I wonder if this is because of the miscarriage she had, but you ll have to bring her to the hospital for proper examination. I've given her a dose that will ease the pain for her, but nothing is guarantied, as it can come back at any time.&quot;
  Mujaheed shook hands with him and spoke, &quot;Thank you, Dr. I ll make sure to bring her when she feels better.&quot; He watched as he left the room and Nana took the IV Dr Haris had came back to take off from her body to discard.
  &quot;It s already late at night, I'll come back in the morning to check up on her, if there s something I can do please call me, Ya Mujaheed.&quot; He nodded his head

  She knew she had stayed longer than three hours alone in the house and when she got hungry, she trudged and saw a flask in the kitchen with the gruel remaining and took some in the kitchen. She came back to the living room, turned the tv on and curled herself on the longest sofa as she planned to watch the movie that was playing, even though it was all an attempt to run away from what was eating her up, she didn t know she had slept off there until she felt his hand tapping her on her shoulder.
  She lazily opened her eyes and immediately sat up when she saw it was him, &quot;Go inside and sleep.&quot; He said curtly and she nodded her head before she stood up. She wanted them to have a conversation, apologize to him even though he had already made it clear to her that even if she apologized to him, it wouldn't make any difference, but at least he deserved an apology from her. 
  But f

&quot;I had to wake up early to paint that smile I'm seeing on your face now. It s been long since I last saw it. Good morning, Ya Fareeda.&quot; She greeted and Fareeda shook her head, Nana will always be Nana, and nothing you will do or say will change her from being herself.
  &quot;You ll always be like this, Nana. Thank you for working so hard to see this smile on my face, I love you.&quot; She hugged her lightly and Nana screamed before she ran out of her hold and sat at the opposite sofa from her.
  &quot;Whenever you say you love me, I just have to wait because I'd have to suffer from you that day. Now, where is your husband? You should eat together with him, I cooked for the two of you.&quot; Nana began to look around as if Mujaheed could magically come out of the four walls confining the rooms.
  &quot;He s not here since Subh Salah, I think he's at the gate. If you need something from him you can just meet him there. He won t be back here until after Asr to make something

Chapter 46 29: Dread Of Loss