Chapter 4

{Clarissa.} Now it's clearly open to me, I can now clearly see the true colors of life, I am never going to blame my chi, neither am I going to blame life for anything. Afterall, I am not the only one that has been rejected, a lot of she-wolves have been rejected countless times. I am going to live a better life from today henceforth, I am no longer to be a fool, I will make my days brighter from today henceforth. I am indirectly a victim of a fooled lover. I have been directly embarrassed. I gave him everything. I placed my whole body to satisfy him. But, in the end, I got nothing in return, I was only rejected. I was rejected by the same man I hoped I would settle with In the end. I was quite happy with him, I made sure that he was comfortable and satisfied with everything I had to offer. It still stand's to be the most surprising thing in my life. I cannot still believe that I was rejected. Wish I could just open my eyes and find out that it was all a dream. I hope that the whole rejection turns out to be a complete dream. I seriously do not know who you I would blame right now, I wish I could blame him but, I can't just do so. It is quite obvious that I cannot blame him. I blame myself more for everything. Was a complete fool. I saw the signs but I ignored it. I did not in any way believe that he was going to do such a thing to me. I was all over the fact that he loved me, I never knew that he was only after the sextual pleasure. I wish I knew that he was only in love with the sextual satisfaction. I cannot in any way deny the fact that I am not myself right now. But it is quite obvious that I cannot do anything right now. There is obviously nothing I can do about it, it is a complete reality, And there is virtually nothing I can do about it. I would make sure such a thing never repeats itself in my life. I would never be a fool for the second time. I could clearly remember the event last month. It happened right in front of him. He could clearly see how a man was ready to fight for me. The man had fallen in love at first sight. He was really to do everything for me, he wanted me so badly to the extent that he was ready to fight anyone. Stand on his way. And that was how he could get me completely,it was so easy for him to convince me that he loves me so much. After seeing him fight against a fearless werewolf for me, I believe that he was completely in love with me. I felt that the love has for me was the reason why he fought the man that day. But now it turns out that he only fought because he did not want to miss a day without having me in his room. He was only in love with the sexual activities that take place every day, I should have known better, I should have seen it in the way he was always asking for sex. We never stayed a day without having sexual satisfaction and he never let me stay so far away from him, I guess he never wanted me to far away from him because, he knew that I was just a sex toy to him and nothing more. He knew that I was the only one that will certify him sexually and give him all the sexual hunger that he had. But thank my chi that It is all over now. And I still regret the fact that I rejected all those men that came after me. They gave me the best offer, they were ready to give me everything I needed and still show me love, but how sure am I that they will not end up like Clyde. I would try all I have and put all my best and power to the fact that I would always stand strong. I would always stand strong in my heart and never let a man twist my head with the sweet voices of theirs. "Clarissa, Clarissa Clarissa!" I am conscious and I know what I am doing, but it appears to be that I could hear a voice calling me from afar, the voice sounds like a person's voice, and the person seems to be calling me from a very far distance. I used my eyes to search around but I could not see anyone. I wondered what the problem may be, I could not still imagine how this could be really happening to me. And then I could feel someone tap me, the tap brought me to a state of shock and I could feel like I was regaining consciousness. I opened my eyes widely and I was still recovering from the shock, now I realize that I was only thinking too much and that is why I could not realize that someone was right in front of me. I'm getting to know who was right in front of me, I was quite disappointed and unhappy, I realized that it was Grandma. "Grandma is there anything you want me to do?" Instead of her to reply me, she walked out of the saying nothing. "That's weird." I said to myself and stood up from the bed. I practically thought all through the night. "Does she skeep at night? I walked out of the room. I had something important to get from the grocery store. While I was on my way to the store, I heard someone calling my name. I turbed back and notuved it was Daniel. He is so annoying. "What do you want?" That was the first question I could ask him. I was so annoyed to see that you disturb me from what I was doing. On the other hand I was grateful that he revived me from a total state of thinking. I know that I am an orphan, and I am supposed to remain humble. But I get really irritated whenever I see some poor people. I am an orphan but I still struggled hard to make a living, there was no one that could take care of me more than myself and my family, so since I had no family I took up the duty to cater for myself and make sure I have a better life. If I wasn't hard-working, I wouldn't have met Alpha Clyde, even though it was quite obvious that he was not humble and responsible, I still had a c in the palace, I was called with a very respectful name, and all the Omegas in the palace gave me the respect I deserved. I feel so irritated when I see a lot of poor people who do not make any move to become someone Somedays. Even though things appear to be quite blunt now, I know that it is never going to last for long. I have this great and strong feeling that things are going to turn around very soon. I am a very hardworking person and favor is going to come my way very soon. Whenever a door closes for me, it is quite obvious that my chi's and never going to sleep to see that. Watch over me every moment, seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years. I have this great feeling that they are definitely going to open another greater door for me, a door which is going to wipe my tears away, a door which is going to turn everything around, which is going to open a brighter and greater opportunity for me. "I'm sorry that I kept calling your name like that." He said to me and I was quite irritated by the way he speaks. Every word he altered pisses me off. I just can't explain it, it comes along with this negative vibes that gets me irritated and makes me feel like spitting out how uncomfortable I am whenever he's around me. But I always try to hold it back, because I knew it wasn't his fault that he is poor. "Just tell me what you want." I could no longer wait for a moment to ask him what he wanted from me, and why he was disturbing me by the time he was supposed to be at work and hustling for a living. "Please you have to go now. I have better things to do with my time." I said to him and walked away. I have decided never to give any man a chance on my life and if I was to do that Daniel will never get that opportunity. "What do you want ma'am." The receptionist in the grocery store asked me.