Ivan\'s childhood

Thanks to Ivan’s change of behavior toward me, I get to enjoy the beautiful garden and the sun every day now. The guards are still not allowed to talk to me but it feels good to see them around during my daily walks and make sure that there are other humans in the world. Ivan still takes me with him to the office but less than usual. Now, my trips are reduced to twice per week which is fine with me because I can keep up with my house chores too this way. To be honest, things have improved drastically since Saul’s party. I wouldn’t mind keeping it up like this if only Ivan would give me back my phone... Since he’s not back from work yet, I sit in front of a movie while unconsciously waiting for him. I convince myself that I’m doing it simply because I’m too scared to be in his bedroom on my own but the truth could also be that I...Miss him. I grit my teeth together, hating myself for feeling this way about a psychotic murderer just because he showed a little bit of kindness to me. Can I