chapter 91

It s a strange night, to say the least. Long, and almost sleepless. Strained with three minds brewing crazily, and not exactly restful. Conversation is quiet, and sparse, as Carmen asked us never to bring up our newfound fact again and it seems none of us know what else to talk about. It all circles back around the two things – the fact I m pregnant, with twins, and the fact Carmen lost her child that we never knew existed and mentioning either is obviously a sensitive topic. For both of us. Me, I lay in bewildered and silent shock, staring at the sky, trying to get my chaotic feelings under control and absorb the reality of this while Meadow keeps watch. She s alert, on guard and sits staring out into the darkness, spinning to every new sound and can t seem to switch off at all. In Colton s absence she s become my ever-attentive protector and it soothes me a little, while my heart still yearns for him to come to me and hug me tight. What I wouldn t give for him to be laid besid