Chapter 08

I was away for fucking five months.My heart was restless because next week my baby is going to be born and I should be there. And most importantly I want to see Noah. I asked him to wait for me. Shit. I was sitting on my bed but for some unknown reasons I was scared. I should go back before I regret something. Why am I feeling this way? Shit.. I started to pull my hair. What is this? Why am I acting like this? "Why are you upset?" I heard my father s voice as he came into my room. "I don t know dad. I m scared" I was honest. I was really scared for something that I didn t even know. "I was scared too at that time. Don t worry everything will be fine" He patted my shoulder and sighed. "It was not about the baby dad. It was for someone that I saw for one day." I buried my face against my palms and spoke. "Who?" I looked at my dad and he was somewhat curious. "A little boy. Noah" I said and saw the surprise face of dad. Yeah, he should be surprised because I never cared about others before. Dad didn t ask much about him, just nodded and smiled. Then I heard dad s phone ringing. He answered the phone and listened and looked at me. "Your grandma is on the call" With that he gave me the phone. "She s giving birth. Already in the hospital." My heartbeat increased and I looked at dad. He gave me a smile and nodded. "Is she okay? How is she?" I asked about her because I wanted to know because she s my baby s mother. "You don t have to care about her, Ryan. She will give birth to your son in a few minutes." Is my grandma heartless? Why is she acting like this? I don t understand. "I m coming" I said as I hung up the call because I felt angry towards her. "Dad, I wanna go. Are you coming with me?" I asked him because had a few more works to finish. "No. You go. I ll come next week to see my grandson" He really became a grandfather. I smiled with that thought. He s still in his mid forties but no one can tell that because he s still handsome. I nodded at him and left. I didn t even take my belongings with me, I just took my jacket and wore it. My heartbeat was so fucking fast. I came to the airport where my private jet is and got on. I sat and closed my eyes. I knew this would take a few hours but I couldn t wait. I wanted to see her with my baby. As I closed my eyes Noah s little smile and his voice came to my vision and it made me smile unintentionally. I have no idea why I think about this boy this much. Maybe because he had the same features as the woman who caught my attention. When I came to my country it s already dawn. I went to the hospital straight away and strode towards her ward because I knew she s in the best ward in this hospital. I owned this hospital and no one dared to speak while I was walking towards the ward. As I entered her hospital ward I saw she s peacefully sleeping. I smiled as I saw her. Fucking gorgeous. Why am I obsessed with this woman so much? She really reminds me of that little boy. I slowly walked towards her bed and watched her sleeping face. So beautiful. Half of her face is covered with her hair stands. I gently moved her hair from her face and I was afraid if I woke her up. "Thank you" I slowly leaned towards her and kissed her lips and forehead. She really gave birth to my baby. She maybe did it for her love she had for her boyfriend but I should thank her for giving birth to my baby. It was hard to give birth to a baby and have to surfer so I would always be grateful to her. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" I heard my grandma s angry voice. What is she doing here at this hour? I quickly faced her. "Grandma.. I" I tried to talk to her but she shook her head with her furious face. "Shut up! Come out. NOW!" With that she turned around and left. What the hell is her problem? I looked at that beautiful sleeping face for one last time and left the ward. I found grandma in the private room that belongs to us in this hospital. "You went to see her as soon as you stepped into this hospital instead of going to see your baby? WHAT WAS THAT RYAN?" Suddenly fury took over me as she shouted at me. What the fuck did I do wrong? Can t I see the woman who gave birth to my son? "Why can t I see her grandma? What is your problem with that? You fucking forribened me for seeing her for whole damn nine months. She was carring my fucking baby. I was the man who fucked her and got her pregnant so why can t I see her? Why?" I yelled back at her because of my fury. I knew I shouldn t talk to her like that but why the fuck she yelled at me for seeing the woman who gave birth to my child. "I m a fucking human and I also have feelings and desires. Do you know how much I wanted to feel my baby inside of her? I wanted to touch and I fucking wanted to feel his movements but I didn t get anything because of you. It was all because of you." I looked at my grandma as her eyes turned moist. Fuck.. Why did I shout at her? Shit. "Ryan, you're yelling at me because of that woman who you never knew before?" She spoke slowly and that made my heart hurt. Shit… "I m sorry grandma. I m sorry for yelling at you. I..I was just sad because I couldn t see her during the pregnancy. I sighed and went to her. I hugged her and kissed her cheek but grandma was different and I could clearly see that in her attitude. Urghh. Just forget. "It s okay Ryan, don't yell at your grandma again." She patted my shoulder and said. I nodded and let go of her. "So where is he?" I asked with hope. Does he look like me or his mommy? I was really curious. "He s so much like you Ryan. Your eyes and your hair" Grandma wiped her tears and smiled at me. Really? Like me? "I want to see," I said. Then grandma led me into the room and showed me my little boy. Damn he s sleeping like his mother. I walked towards him and knelt down on the floor. I didn t want to wake him up. I traveled my fingers gently through his smooth skin. I looked at his cheeks, Damn, looks like her. "Hey little guy, your daddy is here" I whispered. I m so fucking happy. "Ryan, go home and take a rest. I will take the baby to Crystal Banglo. You come there later" Grandma spoke and I got up and looked at her. Why does she want to take the baby to Crystal Banglo? Is it because his mother lived there for nine months? "Grandma, Why go there? We can take the baby home right?" I asked as she shook her head. "No. I m taking him there and you go now" With that she left the room. Urghh. Shit. I decided to leave and take a good sleep. So I quickly went home. ………………… I woke up in the afternoon and got ready to go to the Crystal mansion. Then I received a call from Chris. I answered the call and waited until he spoke. Urghh. "Hello daddy" What the fuck? This bastard is totally crazy. He even talks with a child-like voice. Fuck "What the fuck Chris?" I shouted because I was enough with his stupid jokes. "Why? Didn t you become a father yesterday?" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before talking to him. "Yeah but I didn t become your daddy. Bastard" I said as she laughed. "Anyways Congrats bro" He said and I really felt happiness inside of me because I became a father. I can t even believe it. "And you better come to your fucking company and take care of your damn works because I m leaving" With that he hung up the call. How dare he hang up on my call? I ll let him suffer for that. I decided to go to the office and check. After I finished my work I went to the hospital because I wanted to see him. It s been seven months and I couldn t go and meet him. I bought a cake for him and some toys because he was the one who congratulated me first so I wanted to celebrate my baby s birthday with him. As I entered the hospital it s already four in the evening and it s getting dark and showed signs of heavy stormy rain. I went straight to where I saw him and no one was there. Suddenly, I felt uneasy and I have no idea why. I looked for him everywhere and couldn t find him and didn t even see his little friends. So I went to a nurse and asked. "Where is the boy named Noah?" I asked her and saw the shocked expression of the nurse. Then she started to blush. Fuck this is why I hate women. "I m asking you something. Speak" I felt angry because of this woman. She gasped as I spoke with an angry voice.