Chapter 30

After Chris went to his room I stayed there for a while and went into my room. I changed into sweatpants and laid on the bed. 'Congratulations sir As soon as I closed my eyes to sleep Noah s words repeated in my mind with great pain in my heart. Fuck.. Urghh.. My head hurts. I got up from the bed and went to Noel s room. I looked at my son that Julianna gave birth to. Urghhh.. Fucking hell. Why was I so ignorant? I laid beside Noel and hugged him so tightly but I couldn t fall asleep. I was thinking about everything and every memory made my heart ache. Finally it s morning. Urghh.. My head hurts so fucking much. Shit.. I couldn t sleep all night. With that I got up from the bed and looked at Noel who was still sleeping peacefully. My heart softened because of him. I went out of his room and went into mine. I quickly grabbed a shower and changed into a normal black shirt and black pants as I put my shirt inside of my pants slightly. After I was done I looked at the time a