Chapter 10

She was wearing a knee length black frock with straps. She was all wet because of the rain. I could clearly see the damn curves in her body because her dress was glued to her body. Doesn t she feel cold? What happened to her and why is she like that? The was she looked at my direction I felt she was so fucking similar to Noah. As the car passed her I looked back and saw she was staring in the direction that the car left but why did she come here? I was curious because I knew according to the contract she can t see the baby after he s born. Maybe she came to see him for one last time. I sighed and closed my eyes because I knew this would be the last time I see her. I came into the mansion and saw grandma who was looking at my sleeping son. My heart filled with love as I looked at them. "Grandma," I spoke as she looked at me and smiled. "Your lazy boy is sleeping. He s truly like his lazy daddy" Me? Lazy? No. I laughed and sat next to her on the sofa. "I m not lazy, grandma" I said as I took my baby from her hands. "So Ryan. What is his name?" Suddenly, grandma asked. I have no idea. "I don t know," I said while kissing my baby boy s little cheek. "Give him one. You re his daddy" My heart tightened as I remembered that he won t have a mommy in the future. I sighed and closed my eyes but my mind was filled with Noah s pictures. I smiled as I recalled the way he congratulated me. "Noel.. Noel Winston." I finally said because I knew I will never be able to forget the boy that caught my attention and love in one day. "Why? Why is that name?" I looked at grandma and saw she was restless and frowning at me. Why is she like this? "It s a good name. Isn t it grandma?" I asked her as she looked away from my eyes and nodded. "Your choice" With that she got up to leave. Then I suddenly remembered her. "Grandma, Why did she come here a while ago?" I asked her and saw her movements stopped. She took a deep breath before talking to me. "She came here for money" What? Money? Didn t grandma pay her? "Didn t you pay her grandma?" I asked. After a few seconds grandma looked at me and her facial expression was very hard to understand. "I paid her but she was asking for more money. She said she would take the baby with her if we didn t pay her more money" What? Is she that kind of woman? "Did you give money?" Grandma looked away from me and nodded. "I gave Ryan and you know what I found about her?" Grandma looked at me and spoke with disgust. "What is it?" I asked because I was curious. "She didn t pay money for her boyfriend s surgery and he s dead." No.. It can t be. How could she?. Didn t she sell her body for her boyfriend? "And she even found a new lover" My heart stopped. New lover? How could a woman be so heartless? But the way I saw her today I didn t feel she was happy. "If I knew she s that kind of a woman I wouldn't have let her give birth to your baby Ryan" Suddenly hatred took over me. She s a fucking bitch. How dare she? "She doesn t deserve to be my child s mother" I spoke with disgust. I smiled coldly because her innocent look was fake. Heartless woman. Did I sleep with that kind of disgusting woman? I clenched my jaws because of the hatred towards her. If I ever see her again in my life I ll make her suffer. I swore to myself because I was furious at her but at the same time I couldn t forget her. I knew I was attracted to her, to her beauty and her innocent face but she was a fucking gold digger. I looked at grandma and saw she was smiling but that smile is not her normal smile. Why is she even smiling? Suddenly, I felt curious. Did grandma tell me the truth? I asked myself as I looked at her smile. Then she noticed me staring at her so she quickly changed her smile into a sad one. What was that? "Ryan, go and take a shower. I will take care of him" Grandma took the baby and went into the room. My mind was a mess. I can t believe that she s that kind of woman and I still don t even know her name. The way she walked away today. Urghhh… I can t believe she let her boyfriend die. I recalled everything and I remembered the way she cried beneath my body. She was crying because I went rough on her. My heart began to beat so fucking fast as I remembered her moans. Fuck… Forget her… She s also like the other women who only care about money. ………………. The next day I woke up and got dressed to go to the office but I decided to go and meet Noah s sister before everything because one of Noah s friends told me that Noah had something for me with his sister so I was curious. I couldn t sleep yesterday night because Noah s smile and that woman s face haunted me. I felt sad and had unknown feelings towards them. I was late. I could have paid Noah s surgery fee. I was just useless. Maybe he waited for me. I looked at myself through the mirror and saw my eyes had already become red. I closed my eyes and sighed. After breakfast I kissed my baby s forehead and left. I didn t want to see grandma and I have no idea why that was. I have never felt something like this before. My assistant called and told Noah s home address yesterday night so I went there. As I came into his home it was a small house. My heart aches because I have no idea how his sister is living here without him. Without thinking anymore I knocked on the door but didn t get any response. So I did it a few times but gained nothing. I tried to open the door but the door was locked. Then I saw an eldary woman who was looking at me with a curious face. "Can I know where Noah's sister is?" I asked her. She looked at me while raising her brows? "Why are you looking for her?" She asked me with a cold tone. I have no idea what I do to make her talk to me like this. "I want to talk about something with her" I simply said because I didn t want to get angry at this stupid woman. "She s not here" With that she turned to leave. What the fuck? "Then where is she?" I asked. I was really angry at this woman but I didn t want to show it because she s an old woman. "I saw her leaving yesterday night and she also had a big luggage with her. I think she left the house because of Noah s death" She said with a worried face. Left the house? Last night? Yesterday it rained heavily at night so how did she leave and where did she go? "Do you have any idea where she left?" I was really curious because why did she leave suddenly? "No. I have no idea where Julianna went" With that she left. Julianna? Is that her name? It s a beautiful name but how am I supposed to find her? I sighed and decided to go to the office before it s late. …………………….. Three Years Later I was having breakfast while feeding my little son. He was really cute and his attitude was totally different from mine. I was sure that he had inherited his attitudes from his mother. My heart tightened as I recalled his mother. Everytime that woman appears in my mind my heart hurts. It s been three years and I still can't forget her. She appeared in my dreams every fucking day and I hate her for that. She made me fall in love with her. I looked for her and I couldn't find her. I was looking for two women and I couldn t find them both. Noah s sister and mother of my son. "Daddy, Ahhh" I was pulled back from my thoughts by Noel s sweet voice. Urghh.. I again lost in thoughts while feeding him. "Sorry baby" With that I fed him his nutrients. He giggled happily. I don t know but for some reason everytime I see his smile that reminds me of Noah. Noah had the same smile as Noel. Maybe Noel has his mother s smile. I sighed with that thought because I ve never seen her smile. "Daddy I saw mommy" My heartbeat stopped as I heard what my son said. Saw his mommy? What the fuck? "What? Where?" It was my grandma s angry voice. Why is she even angry? I looked at her and saw she was frowning at Noel but Noel didn t even look at her. Noel was really something because he didn t like grandma. He disliked her touch, her voice and totally disliked her. "Daddy she s so pretty. Like a hmmm. Ahhh daddy what is the name we call for most pretty ladies with beautiful wings?" Noel looked up at me while showing his pearl white teeth. Pufftt.. I forced my laugh back.