Chapter 20.2 - Chen

When I got home, I went into the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror, staring at myself in the mirror. Eyes swollen. Weak. Vulnerable. Then, amid the turmoil, there was an instantaneous silence. The silence has become deafening, swallowing my soul as tears form around my eyes. I sat on the couch, exhausted, replaying his words that refuse to leave my mind. I pondered as I traced the lines where Alex kissed my lips with my fingers. I closed my eyes and caressed them until my mind stopped recreating those tense times. At that moment, I went to the darkroom and punched the walls until my knuckles bled then I let out a sigh of disappointment. Blood splattered on the ground, as tears streamed down my cheeks. 'Can you tell me why I'm crying right now?" I muttered something. 'How come I'm crying right now? Well, I deserve this anyway." I wept and screamed the entire night, crouching and crawling to the floor, and I didn't stop until early the next morning. *** Despi