CHAPTER 43

Zara’s POV Nick and I are finally home from our tour. The weather doesn't seem to be getting any better. The warm sunlight that once touched my skin has turned into a cool breeze. The sky above is filled with black and grey clouds, and it's raining again.             Instead of catching a ride, we decide to walk home in silence. Holding hands, but something feels off.             Why can't I feel love for him?             It's been six months, but I can't see Nick as my life partner. He's an important person in my life, but definitely not a husband.             Something feels wrong because I can't even feel the wedding ring I'm wearing. The pictures he shows me seem suspicious. We don't even have a wedding photo. My mind feels like it's being excavated again.             We arrive back home. It's just the two of us and Nick, but for some unknown reason, I feel nervous. I find myself in the living room, and Nick tries to kiss me.             But why do I feel like I'm being violated? W