Chapter 44: Intimacy

Athena So many thoughts were running in my head. Some that made me want to forget everything, and some that pushed to the same dark pathway that I wanted to escape. I was afraid that this moment would end just like every other good thing that only comes once in a lifetime. My hands froze right after opening the third button of his shirt. When the sun would go up and the effects of the liquor would vanish, Sebastian won't be the same anymore. He'd put his same mask on, and get set on his mission to make me loathe him at any cost. He'd not show me this smile anymore, he'd not behave like this anymore, he'd simply not be the same person anymore instead he'd pretend to be the Sebastian who was a living nightmare for me and only intended to show me the worst. Perhaps, it was beyond my capability to understand what picture he had in his mind, what was his view about this world, what fears was stopping him from letting go of the curse which he considered his escape from the reality and if it