Chapter 189

　　Louisa's POV 　　I had never cried out so hard in my life. 　　I was lying in Gianna's arms and cried my heart out. 　　I knew it was very inappropriate to cry like that in front of someone that you had just met, but I felt that she had known me for a really long time. 　　Maybe it was because she was pregnant and the hormone she gave off made me feel that I was crying in my mother's arms. 　　Maybe it was because I felt very guilty because I had had some very impure thoughts towards Lucian. 　　Maybe it was because she had never tried to stop me from crying. 　　Maybe... 　　Maybe it was because I realized that I could never have a man loving me in the same way Lucian loved Gianna. 　　Love was the only thing I wanted in my life, but love wasn't something that I believed in. 　　I guessed before I met Gianna, I thought maybe love was just something people made up in fairy tales. 　　But when I saw Lucian holding and kissing her, when I saw the devotion in their eyes when they laid their eyes on each othe