Chapter 103

Tyson Jesus Christ! Damn, fuck me! I couldn’t hate myself more for saying those words to her. I couldn’t withstand her crying in front of me.  I was so tempted to pull her onto my chest and hug her tightly, and kiss those ugly tears from her eyes. I couldn’t even tell her the reason we had to do that. I am so fucked up! I haven’t been able to breathe properly since I clicked on the block button. I had to stop myself from messaging her.  I couldn’t just stare at my phone without having the urge to text her. Without having to tell her that I love and I would never leave her. It was so fucking hard to say those words to her. Damn, I feel like roasting myself in a hot flame. I can’t cope anymore without her by my side. God, it is killing me! I rise from my bed and storm out of the room. I didn’t go to school today, I wouldn’t be able to bear it. I can’t have her on the same premises and not speak to her. I would die of hurt and guilt. I walk along the aisle, my throat feels sore after I di