Chapter 15 Learn to control it

"I turned him down." Adri replied calmly. I don't know why, but Adri's rejection actually made me feel a little happy. "Kasha, he still cares about you. This is a good thing, proving that you and he can be mates guided by the Moon Goddess." Bella said in my head as she jumped for joy. "I just don't want to be sent to another strange place, in case they mistreat me and keep me in a cage and treat me like a pet, then I'd rather stay here and be a maid." I responded to Bella in my head. "Well, you're always like that, refusing to say what's really in your heart." Bella said to me with a grimace. "Kasha, during this recent period, you'd better stay here and don't go anywhere. Because of your different status, many people will want to get you." Adri was a bit uneasy. "I understand." I replied calmly, now that once I appeared anywhere other than Adri's villa, I would attract those who wanted to get their hands on me. "At least they're not stupid enough to break into my father's house to take you." Adri said to me. But what none of us knew was just how many people wanted me or how many people knew about what happened that day. Adri didn't explain what he wanted me to do, so maybe he took pity on me for having just lost the last of my family. I went back to my room, lay down on my bed and stared at the ceiling in disbelief. There are still three days to go before the appointed day with Tina. But there will be no one to celebrate me anymore. "Hey Kasha, you still have me." Bella said to me again in my head, and if she could have run out, she would have given me a big hug. "Bella, I want to take a break." I tucked my head under the covers, hoping this would all pass quickly. I don't know how long it took, but I fell asleep. In the dream, I saw Tina again with blood everywhere, lying on the ground. No matter how much I called out, she did not open her eyes. When I woke up, I was still lying in bed with tears on my face. "Kasha, are you okay?" Adri asked as she entered my room at some point and sat next to me. "I'm fine." I replied, wiping my eyes, not wanting him to see my sadness. "I know it's your coming-of-age ceremony in two days, so I prepared a present for you in advance, and I hope you'll be happy." Adri said and took out a delicate box, inside was a beautiful pink diamond necklace. "Sir, that doesn't seem quite in order." I didn't mean to take it; here, I was just his maid. "At the coming-of-age ceremony, we will announce that you already belong to the Black Thunder Pack, and this necklace is a sort of compensation to you for not being able to announce you as my mate." Adri said. I picked it up, I had figured out that it was okay not to be a mate, after all, I was now a rouge too, just not evicted. "Thanks." I said politely. "In addition, we want to train you to be able to make you strong enough to protect yourself in the face of a crisis, and I will train with you." Adri said to me. I nodded that Tina and Kanas would want me to be stronger too. "Happy coming-of-age ceremony in advance." Adri's eyes took a deep look at me, and with that, he got up and left the room. I was about to go and prepare breakfast for Adri when Rafa walked into the room with a plate of fruit in his hand. "You better not think you can change anything by being the exclusive maid of Mister. Today is an important day when Mister has an appointment with Miss Karina, who will soon become the mistress of this place because she is the daughter of an Alpha." Rafa said to me indifferently. "Is that so? That's really nice, and I'll give them my blessing." I took the fruit on my plate and ate it, smiling in reply, even though I still felt bad inside. "You don't have to give your blessing because your parents are dead, especially your mother, who died less than a month ago, and you are an unlucky person who is not qualified to bless others." Rafa said as he gave me a blank look. "Whatever, I don't care anyway." I didn't want to argue with her about anything. "Did you say the same thing when your mother died? Whatever, don't care?" Rafa mocked me by talking like I did. "You'd better not anger me or bring up my mother in front of me again, or I'll kill you!" After saying these words, I myself was taken aback. I would actually want to kill her? "Kill me? Are you afraid that people will know that you killed your own mother? No wonder you're not upset at all about her death, you're simply committing murder!" Rafa jumped at me with her finger, thinking that her suspicions were all true. But when she said murder, it completely enraged me. The anger was like a burning flame that made the blood in my body boil. Everything in front of my eyes began to glow red again, and my hands had turned into wolf claws and were clutching Rafa's neck. "Help...help me..." Rafa's face twisted with fear and struggled desperately, but her hand slapped against my arm as if it were tickling, barely feeling it. Her voice was also hoarse from the chokehold, with only an exaggerated mouth shape. "I told you, you better not piss me off!" I glared at Rafa, fear twisting her face further and further. "Kasha, calm down, let her go!" Adri and Senge rushed in, Adri shouting at me. "So it's all true, she's really a berserk werewolf, but I think she seems prettier after she's berserk." Senge exclaimed in surprise and excitement. "Kasha, let her go immediately!" Adri ordered me in a cold voice, a powerful breath that pulled my senses back, but only for a few brief seconds. "She insulted me and my mother, so I should have killed her." All I had left in my heart was a bloodthirsty craving, and I even wanted to bite off her neck. "Kasha, listen to me, she has done something wrong and Adri will punish her. The pack will not allow killing among its members, and if you kill her, you will be a sinner to the pack. That wouldn't be what anyone would want, would it?" Senge said to me as she collected her smile. My grip on Rafa's neck seemed to loosen a little. "Kasha, werewolf berserking is not completely free of side effects; its biggest side effect is that it fills you with killing emotions. You need to learn to control it, not be controlled by it." Adri's tone also gentled down. I slowly closed my eyes, despite the countless impulses in my heart that made me want to kill Rafa. But Tina must not want to see me become like Takri. Including my father.