Chapter 17 Accept it and move on!

Authors pov Sebastian couldn't sleep all night, his mind was continuously debating about the decision he was going to make. He wanted to keep her and he has no idea why. Something was attracting him towards her like a magnet. He wants her but can't keep her, there is a long list of pros and cons. 'I can't keep you with me Florina... It's better you stay away from me. A girl like you shouldn't be near me...' Releasing a defeated sigh he got up from the bed while she was still in deep sleep. He lit his cigarette and took a long drag. Standing near the window he looked at the sunrise, everything was peaceful and calm unlike his life. His phone rang on the night stand and he quickly received it not wanting to wake her up by the loud ringtone. Florina heard the ringing of the phone and lazily opened her eyes. She blinked her eyes few time to clear her blurry vision. Her eyes found the shirtless man, her captor with his back facing her as he was busy in talking on phone. She sat up and her heart almost stopped beating when she looked at herself. She was only in his oversize shirt, her eyes found her bra and panties on the floor along with the dress that she was wearing yesterday. Florina licked her dry lips and grabbed her head in disbelief as last night's memories crashed down on her. Her eyes went glossy and face turned into shame and embarrassment as she remembered how she threw herself on Sebastian. 'You are drunk...' 'You don't want this' 'Don't cry in the morning' She recollected his words and with every second her heart started feeling heavy. Florina was aware that whenever she gets drunk she behaves like a horny teenager. Her ex boyfriend Jimmy had always told her and teased her about it. But the thing was even if she was drunk she always went to her boyfriend and not any stranger. Then how can she choose Sebastian. It has never happened before because before she had someone to go to and now she doesn't. She wanted to cry and scream for her own stupidity. For a second she thought about lashing out on Sebastian for taking advantage of her drunken state but whom was she kidding. She herself seduced him, provoked him and what else can she expect from a mafia don who is anything but a gentleman. 'Before blaming others watch yourself Florina... It's your fault too and you wanted it too... Not like he will accept his mistake anyway. What can you do, you can't even touch him.' She opened her eyes with this bitter thought. Her wrists were hurting and she felt slight irritation on her ankles too. Tilting her head she found his grey eyes staring at her with an unknown expressions. What was it, concern?. Florina didn't reflect her emotions on her face. She refused to show him her vulnerable side, he has seen enough. Her heart stung at the thought that now he will throw her out just like Vincenzo did. 'I should leave before he says something. I can't let my self esteem fall, he won't think twice before crushing it under his branded shoes... So what if I slept with him, take it as a good fuck and move on. You are not a kid Florina, stop bothering yourself with unnecessary things. You wanted to fuck him and you did... So stop crying now...' She scolded herself. "I want to leave..." She said with a firm voice. Sebestian took another drag of his cigarette and tilted his head away from her with a hard face. "A car is already waiting for you outside..." 'Great... See, he doesn't give a fuck. And you are going to do the same...' She kept her face blank. She got up from the bed and hissed as she felt pain in her intimate part. She was already sore because of Vincenzo and Sebastian just made it worst. Sebastian took a step ahead to hold her but she composed herself quickly. She bit her lip and glared at him. "Is this what you wanted to interrogate..." Sebastian clenched his jaw and glared at her. "Watch your tone... Should I remind you who initiated it..." Florina averted her eyes and picked up her dress. She changed in the bathroom, she had no panties but it wasn't a big problem for now. The marks on her thighs, wrists and around her waist was making her feel different. She couldn't point out the feeling. It wasn't guilt neither it was regret. It was something between acceptance and denial. She wasn't ready to accept that she enjoyed it, every second of it. Going outside she straight away grabbed her purse and phone which was on the table. She didn't even bother to look at Sebastian. She was angry, not on him but on herself. Sebastian crushed his cigarette in the ash tray and sighed. He ran his hand in his already messy hair and slammed his fist on the wall. "Fuck..." Florina saw Maria and Stephen in the hall but she didn't wanted to face them now. She was in no mood. "Florina come with me... I'll drop___" Stephen tried but she shook her head. "No thanks..." She replied coldly and kept walking. "It's an order..." Stephen countered. "I don't give a fuck..." She spat back and went outside. No one stopped her. Getting out of the main gate she walked towards the main highway, she had already booked a cab for herself when she was out of his room. Within five minutes the cab arrived and she left for her home. Sebastian was in very bad mood, just like a child who has lost his favourite toy. He got ready and walked downstairs and saw Maria and Stephen having breakfast. "What the fuck are you doing here, I told you to drop her..." Sebastian glared at him. "She refused... I told her but she didn't wanted your car to drop her..." Stephen replied but Sebastian noticed the hint of disappointment in his voice. Stephen was a wise man. Even if he was in illegal things he never hurts someone who is not a threat to them and Sebastian hated that. "How was your night brother..." Maria gave him a disapproving look when he took his seat at the dinning table. "Mind your own fucking business Maria..." Sebastian growled at her. "Who the fuck told you to give her drinks..." "She was drunk Sebastian... Not you." Maria answered with the same tone. "I think you are extending your boundaries... First whores, then fuck buddies and now you are taking advantage of innocent girls... That's why you brought her here, didn't you..." Sebastian threw the plate on the floor and slammed his fist on the table. "I didn't do anything she didn't wanted... And don't forget your limits..." Maria chuckled bitterly. "Ofcourse..." Standing up she looked at him. "I am going to stay with him..." Sebastian's face turned angry as she mentioned him. "You are not going anywhere..." He growled. "I have made my decision... I am sick of this golden cage..." Maria stayed rooted to her ground. Sebastian scoffed at her. "And what's that ?... Another golden cage..." "Atleast he is more tolerable..." With that she left the dining hall. Sebastian kicked the chair and walked in his office. *** 'Relax... I am just cleaning you...' Florina sighed as warm water made her body relax. His words were still ringing in her mind. The way he checked her ankle, cleaned her and kissed her to make her fall asleep, everything was flashing in front of her. After shower she got ready for her work, thankfully yesterday it was Sunday otherwise she had to come up with a good lie to tell cherry why she wasn't at work. "It's okay Florina... It's over. Just let it go. It doesn't matter, it was just a good fuck and nothing else..." Florina took of her necklace to check it as yesterday she didn't got the chance to. She tried to open it but failed. She frowned and tried again. Her eyes widened and the ground beneath her slipped away as she realized it's just a normal necklace. There is no pendrive in it.