Chapter 5

Faith Hugo kisses me I expected to feel a truck but no, he caresses my buttocks but I don't feel this discharge in my body like with Aaron, my underpants are always so dry I don't even wet, bbbfffff he tries to deepen the fuck but I'm putting an end to it, I'm a little pissed off there, I have to stop thinking about this guy and stop comparing his skills to other men because no one will ever come close to him, an obvious fact that makes me a little sad... Se C.O.N d Hugo tries again there my anger multiplies and I shout at him Me: (screaming with rage) but what's your problem in the end? Hugo: why are you yelling at me, you're not going to tell me that you're already sorry Me: let me remind you that between you and me it's over and there will never be anything again Hugo: ololoooo she's getting wild too... what did you eat to be so unpleasant?? Me: you're going to leave this apartment and never come back, otherwise I'm going to cry thief Hugo: no, but you're crazy, it's me, are you hunting from here like a mess? Me: are you going out or am I screaming? Thiefrrrrrr Hugo: it's good it's good I'm leaving, I have nothing to do with a singlet like you He opens the door and almost runs out, which really makes me laugh... When Leila comes home in the evening I tell her what happened she called me crazy and laughed with me, even I didn't know I was capable of her... It's been two months since we got back from Paris and frankly it's not going well, I still haven't found a job and it's becoming very fair when it comes to money, even if Leïla helps me a lot I don't like this situation, I don't don't know if I caught malaria or what but I feel tired, I sleep all day, I don't want to eat anything since I'm nauseous.... I decide to go to the hospital, it's probably malaria they will give me injections and prescribe me products that's better.... I go to the hospital, I explain what I have to the doctor, he asks me when it was my last period, it was this beginning of me, they do a blood test and ask me to come back In the evening... I was sitting in the waiting room when I was called that the doctor was going to see me..... I was sitting in the waiting room when the nurse comes to call me that the doctor is going to see me, I get up rather relieved because I will finally find a solution to my pain.... I knock on the door and the doctor asks me in Me: good evening doctor Doctor: Good evening Mrs. Dassivera, are you alone? It's a bit of a weird question, since when do you need to be accompanied when you suffer from malaria itself? Me: it's ladies and yes I'm the only doctor He seems a little embarrassed, suddenly I give him a little smile to dissipate the discomfort, smile that he returns and resumes Doctor: sorry for the indiscretion miss, well I have your results with me, it's nothing serious your nausea, and fatigue are completely normal in your situation I look at him puzzled, he had a smile on his face which is rather weird, I don't really understand him, to tell the truth, my situation? Me: I'm not a doctor what are you talking about? Doctor: congratulations miss you will be welcoming a new member to the family in a few months I fall naked, maybe I don't understand what he's saying or I didn't hear well, the malaria there is blocking my brain and blocking my ears Me: I'm not your doctor, can you be more clear please? Doctor: What I'm trying to tell you is that you're pregnant. What me ? But how is it possible? I even had my period this month, are you sure there is no mistake? Doctor: there is no mistake miss, these results are very reliable, and for menstruation it often happens there are some women who leak blood at the beginning of their pregnancy and which is perceived as menstruation Me: no but it's not possible it can't be true, nonnnn.... I get up I see the doctor, I see his mouth moving, I guess he's talking to me but honestly, I don't hear what he's saying, I storm out of his office, I can't think, my vision is blurred, tears of anger and helplessness run down my face, I walk without knowing where I'm going, there are cars and motorbikes honking, I receive a few insults in passing, which means nothing to me ... For a single night, a single night in which I decide not to think of anything, to stop thinking about everything, I gave myself to a stranger a man I will never see again in my life and as a result I am pregnant, pregnant .... But how am I going to manage? All alone, without work and soon without money... I never knew my father, I always lived with my mother, we always managed on our own, I had to learn to manage very early to help my mother, I had promised myself to get married and to give a family to my children, so that they grow up with the love of their two parents not like me, it's not as if I don't receive enough love from my mother but we always recent this emptiness that nothing can fill up and now history is repeating itself.... I get in a taxi towards the house, a few minutes later I get out of the taxi like an automaton, I see Leïla at the front with a rather middle-aged man in the middle of a discussion, but for the moment I have not head to his I pass them by lacing a simple hello and I go into the house without looking at them... Leila I was at the front chatting with my sugar daddy when I see faith coming to stop glancing at your eyes I too want to settle down am tired of sleeping alone at night without someone to hug me, reassure me when I'm scared and still warm my bed at night (laughs), I'll have time to talk to you about him later As I said we were in the middle of a discussion when I see faith arrive, her eyes were swelling it looks like she cried, I don't know what happened, she had to go to the hospital for her malaria I don't know who she met on the way or what happened to make her in this state but what is certain is that it must be serious, when she arrives at our level she just throws a hello and she leaves, she who would usually give me killer looks, she doesn't even react I hasten to say goodbye to my "darling" and I go home to find out what is happening... When I get home I see her sitting in the living room staring into space, I sit next to her I put my hand on hers before starting Me: (soft tone) ehhhh baby what's wrong? Faith: nothing goes, nothing Me: explain to me, I don't understand Faith: I'm pregnant Me: well...uh...co...how come? Who is he from? Don't tell me you did it with that jerk... She cuts me off before I even had time to pronounce Hugo's name Faith: he is from Aaron I was overwhelmed and shocked but I avoid letting anything appear to plunge her even more into disarray Me: what are you going to do? Faith: there is nothing to do, I will keep him, raise him alone and make sure he can have everything he deserves Me: it's the best decision you can make, I'm here and we'll manage this together, don't forget that I'll always be there for you Tears bead her face and she takes me in her arms, we embrace for several minutes before loosening the embrace... Me: I'm going to become auntie wèè (by dancing) Faith: it's easy to tell when it's not you who will have morning sickness, grow like a whale and spend sleepless nights (laughs) Me: kiakiakiaaa it's the advantage of being an aunt, you only benefit from the positive side Count on me to turn him into a little devil, two of us are really going to give head words hahahahaa Faith: sorry, don't say that next to me and he'll hear, at the mere thought of that I already have headaches, sorry I can't stand two Leïla I risk dying before the hour Me: hahahahaa, well get ready dear it's coming soon And if things go well he will have an uncle cake when he is born, hihihiiii Faith: speaking of who is the man I saw you with when I arrived Me: chuiiiipppp the girl here despite the fact that you were crying you were analyzing what was happening around you Faith: even when we cry we see, besides I was not crying Me: yes that's it... Getting back on topic, he's my boyfriend. Faith: what? He must be twice your age Me: hey he's not that old he's in his 40's Faith: But are you sure he's serious? He must have a wife and children who will be almost our age. Me: yes but don't worry he's a good guy and I like him, he wants to take me as his second wife Faith: but his second is what you want for yourself? Me: you know me too I want to have my share of happiness, I'm tired of being empty balls for boys, I also want to start my family, have children too, I don't want to end up old girl and alone Faith: you know we still have time to find the man of our life and start our family, it's never too late and I know that one day we'll be as happy in our turn and don't worry even at 50 years you will not be a spinster If you're sure of what you're doing you know I'll always have your back, but promise me you'll be careful, I don't want him to make you cry, or hurt your little heart Me: I promise I'll take care of myself Faith: You better because if he does something to you I'll drink it, you don't want to come see me in prison do you? Me: of course not, plus people of my rank don't have to go to these kind of places so I'll be careful then (laughs) Faith: ah yes that's it, the star We are all laughing, I really love this girl she has so much strength and courage in her, despite all her problems she always finds time to worry about me....