Chapter 47

El"s point of view My day begins with a sense of joy and excitement in my heart. He was the first thing I saw when I initially opened my eyes, and I was extra happier because of his effort. Even though I didn't ask him to, I don't know why he did it. I couldn't help but be surprised and my heart warm at the same time since I didn't ask him to get my uniform and prepare our meal. I must be the one making the effort because of my shortcoming; due to my one month absence; and because he went to the apartment for two nights to see me but he didn't see me because I wasn't in the apartment. I get guilty in everything but he doesn"t even make me feel like I"m wrong and he"s sulking at me. When he open-up about he can"t help not to compare himself to Ivan, I felt saddened for him. It never entered my mind that he was thinking that because I wasn't comparing him from Ivan. They are both important in my life but I feel differently for them. However, I couldn&quo