Chapter 44

"El, what happened to us?" he asked, breaking the silence between us. "Why? Why do I feel like you're avoiding me?" he added and I can"t do anything than to gulp. How? How could I forget something I wanted to bury if this was the kind of question he was asking? I don't know why I feel dejected for what happened to us. Is it normal for him to feel for the friend or is he just like me who tries to ignore the feeling so that no one gets hurt in the end? I could no longer understand him; he shows various motives and he does not clarify everything. I want to ask but I prefer to just wait for him to tell me how he really feels about me. I don"t want to assume and when I ask him, what if what I have in mind is wrong? What if I don't feel right? If I ask him and my suspicions are not correct, he may will feel awkward and he will think why I asked that. "El, just tell me if I'm a hindrance to your life-" I didn"t want to hear what he had to say so I didn"t finish