Chapter 18

Yenn looked at him exasperatedly, scrutinizing his tone and movements as the intense stare sent an excited shiver to his spine making his body felt the scorching heat. His gaze lock into his own and his golden eyes hinted a glimpse of disgust and antipathy. He gulped down trying to voice out a sensible explanation but even a single word couldn"t escape from his mouth. He looked down pinning his eyes on the plate then he heard him speak. "Is that so? Well, excuse me I'm a guy" He felt his body moved away then he glanced up seeing him getting some curry. He sighed in remorse wetting his lips as the guilty feeling start to seep into his veins, tugging his nerves to tell Yenn what happened last night. His mind felt the unmistakable urge, the fear and the excitement flared up in his heart as he sensed him approaching slowly to him. He had to tell him that—he was pent up and he happen to saw him in a sexy pose so he—he ended up using his thighs to relieve himself but that was a horrible explanation and he don"t want to stir a fucking misunderstanding between them. Definitely not, even if he did got a chance he won't give a fuck about it. He cleared his mind and avoid the nasty thoughts that was building up inside his brain. "Dude, not gonna eat?" he heard Yenn's voice crept into his ears. "I will, just— waiting for it to cool down a bit" He gave him a crude smile. His guts finally gave in and decide to start a topic between them. "I did a strange thing last night" He spoke in a troubled tone then he gave him a pleading look for advice. Yenn paused eating and looked at him arching his brow. "Like what?" Jiwoon exhaled deeply then he finally find the courage to tell him. "I was drunk and—somehow I remembered what I did last night and it was quite crazy but" he paused seeing Yenn stared at him impatiently. "I just happen to uh—its not intentional but I just— I accidentally did something to you last night." He said in a panic blurting a very vague details about what exactly happened last night. "Did what?!" Yenn's eyes glared at him fiercely with disbelief. "What did you do to me last night?!" He asked him in an angry tone. "Hey I didn"t do something weird okay! I just—just caught a peek of you last night and w–watched you sleep nothing else I s-swear!" he suddenly raised his arm to a vow which made Yenn laugh a bit. "That so?" his voice relaxed but his eyes still had a hint of rage. "Yeah, nothing else" Jiwoon crossed his finger to his heart swearing that he didn"t do anything else which is a total lie but he couldn"t stand seeing him too agitated since he's already feeling a lot of guilt. Damn he swore he'll take that secret to his grave its so damn embarrassing! "Why"d you even watch someone sleep?" Yenn ask him perplexed. "Well, I told you. Its strange I just couldn"t take my eyes off your sleeping face." He wet his lips looking at him guiltily. Fuck! I sound so lame! He chuckled then avert his eyes from Yenn's, hands focused on fiddling with his spoon. "Oh? Do you like me or something? Dude please, I hope not" Yenn said in a serious tone. His golden brown eyes stared deeply into his face. Jiwoon met his then he said in a dismayed tone "Yeah, I'm not" He glanced away then start eating the already cooled curry. Damn, I know. I'll never fall for another guy and that's entirely impossible for me because I'm totally straight he repented on his mind getting his thought back to normal but then the question he heard made everything a total mess inside his head. "Then, why did you kiss me?" Yenn suddenly asked making him choked on his food. Why? I don"t know…Why did I even kiss him then? He drank some water then his eyes fixated onto Yenn's expression. He looked troubled but his eyes were filled with antipathy piercing his already broken soul. "I don"t know, that time I want you to shut up and I—you know I have no choice but to uh" he paused feeling his sweat dripping coldly in his face. "You should"ve punched me" Yenn snorted then his tone became sharp "You–you hate me don"t you?" he look at him with a trace of disdain. Did he hate it that much? Yenn stared at him patiently waiting for his nerve wrecking response or what he thought so but his eyes were glinting with a murderous aura and that make it hard for him to breath. "No, I don"t" he voiced out in a mellow tone. His heart was beating like drums and his thoughts were filled with unmistakable guilt. "If I hate you…I won't try to kiss you." He look at Yenn readying himself for a damn outburst of rage coming from him but only silence filled the air, too silent that he could hear his own heartbeat and his own breath, it"s way too suffocating. After a while he heard him sigh. "You"re right" Yenn shrugged his shoulder and finally took his plate to the sink. The brief eating session that was only a fleeting fifteen minutes felt like an eternal swing to his rapidly beating heart. Yenn went back to his room, still confused about the fact that Jiwoon kissed him. He told him that he doesn"t like him but he don"t hate him too then why'd he do that to him? It just doesn"t make sense. He sat on the edge of his bed thinking then remembering what he said I watched you sleep last night he arched his brows like hell why would someone watch another one sleep and much worst, he"s watching another guy sleep and that so goddamn weird! He asked his mind again. Why? He remembered his answer "I just couldn"t take my eyes off your sleeping face" that"s weird. Like totally unexplainable kind of weird. Does he look ugly or strange when he sleep? He shook his head. That"s no way near possible since he said he had a pretty face which is partially true in his part. He had a girlish face yes, maybe that made Jiwoon confused and thought that he was a girl. Yeah, that could be it but he knew Jiwoon had seen him jerked off though. Oh fuck! And that disgusting dick was even slapped to his face! He shuddered with disgust, damn why is he even remembering those things right now. He groaned confused, he tried to roll in the sheets but the time was already late and he couldn"t sleep. Yenn went out of his room then he made his way to the kitchen searching for a midnight snack to munch down since he really couldn"t rest and he's goddamn tired but his brain doesn"t want him to sleep. He went down to the terrace then he saw the TV room. He called out and inch closer to the TV aiming to tap the center button but it suddenly turned on!