Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3 (I) I was about to sleep when I noticed Maria Alyana who was still working on her laptop, actually it's been a week and I'm still not tired of budgeting because of the windy Chaos. He's always pestering me, not a day goes by that he doesn't bring flowers. He brought all kinds of flowers because the flowers of the dead were missing. Try me, and he will be picked up on the ground. I turn my gaze on Alyana who's busy in her laptop. I feel pity for her, but maybe it's okay because the true color of that Italian has come out. But Alyana loves that Italian guy so much. "Go to sleep, it looks like you're done." I said while looking on her laptop, she's doing her powerpoint presentation. If I know her mind is flying to Italian again. "It's okay, I'm still not sleepy." She said lazily without looking at me. "Do you remember that Italian again?" I asked, I saw her sighed heavily before answering my question. "I loved him so much." I could feel the pain in her voice, she's really hurt. After a while she told me about it, she almost gave up her virginity! Fck! And worst that Italian guy has a wife! he even made Maria Alyana look like a mistress! Oh God! Did I mention that men do no good! They will love you only because they need you, not because they love you without a purpose. Pathetic! "It's really good to come because you'll probably regret it." I said angrily. "I know it's just hard to believe that he's like that after what he did good things to me. I can really say that he's a gentleman." She made a sad promise. I want to scold Alyana for what she did, but it's not her fault that she's weighing more because she just loves him. Love doesn't really hurt, it will really hurt you. So I don't really believe in Love. "That's really how the men are, at first they were good." I said and rolled my eyes, she laughed I said. "Wow! Are you dating yet?" She asked sarcastically, I nodded. "Not my priority." I just have a short answer. What? They are not on the list in my life. "There's a lot of guys trying to Court you, you don't want to. Hello? You're 24 so you're allowed to have a boyfriend." Yeah she's right! But I don't give a damn, it's just a headache men have more demand than women. And I don't believe that men can truly love. "But I don't want." Shrug my promise, call me manhater but it's true. Indeed "But the Actor really never stopped flirting with you! You're terrible! That's Chaos Ethan!" I immediately noticed my face, as if I care? That's why I'm being tattooed, because maybe I'm the only one who isn't touched by the wind! Never! "I don't like being too arrogant!" And feeling handsome! "He's famous yet, he's flirting with you." "Go to sleep now." I rudely said, then I lay down myself in my bed. I have no intention of answering Maria Alyana. "Nasty! Goodnight!" I didn't bother to say good night with her, as long as I get annoyed when I hear the name of that taxman! I remember my mom... Mommy always locked herself in the room and always hugged daddy's clothes. I always saw her crying, and I hate myself for not doing anything. There was nothing I could do to get rid of mommy's pain. Mommy didn't seem to hear me, and she continued crying while hugging dad's shirt before. I turned around when I felt tears again. My routine before is always like, I will invite her to eat but I just seem to be talking in the air. I didn't receive any answers from her. I used to go home with 100 grades and always have honors, but mom don't care about it. It's sad. Dad, why are you so selfish? Why did you suddenly leave us? Ever since Dad left, it seems like I'm the one who stood up for Sherina's mother, because of mommy's condition, she can't talk anymore. She only eats if nanny brings food with it. One time she shouted at me, she didn't want to see me anymore. I was in so much pain then. I insisted, I insisted even just for Sherina and me. I feel that she want to say that this is my fault. Sherina needs me, and I miss my little sister. I call her in her number. After a minute she answered it. "Sister." I wiped my tears away and smile. "I love you sister Shaina..." "Where are you now?" I asked Sherina, who I was talking to on the phone. I'm going to the hospital. "My sister is still at home. I'll be in this afternoon." Sherina is in Grade 10 now and she's graduating. She's living under my aunt's roof. After our mom died, yes mommy was gone. After a month daddy left us then. Mommy committed suicide. We found her hanging in her room. She did that without leaving a letter. She left Sherina and me, not even thinking that she had a child. Yes I am angry with her but I am very angry with my father. Sherina and I wouldn't have lived like this if it weren't for him. Aunt Amanda was the one who took care of Sherina then, who was mommy's sister, auntie was an old lady because we were not an obstacle for her. She was like my mommy. Dad once went to mom's hill but I was numb and just let him go. The thickness of his face that he was carrying with his mistress! Until now, I really hate him! I wiped away my tears, because I'm driving I don't want to die first. Sherina needs me. "I'll come later." I said. "All right, be careful." I no longer answered and turned off the call, I put my phone on the dashboard. When I get to the hospital and after being parked by the guard, I will enter. "Oh ma'am!" I stopped when the guard called me. "Why?" "Wait a minute, someone will give it to you." At the same time, he reached for a paper bag. "It's too early." I promised and turned away. "But ma'am..." I didn't finish the guard and directly entered. My phone vibrated because someone texted, I took it out of the pocket of my scrub suit. Chaos: "Why you gave to the guard? :(" I just ignored his text and continued to walk, I knew he was just around. He's really crazy. Exactly seven when I arrived at my office, I caught up with Jill who was talking on her cellphone. "Did you watch Moonstone's interview with showbiz actress aunts Mel?" Jill asked as I sat down. I looked at my sched today, Thirdy is still my first one after 7:30 to take blood from him. "I'm not interested." My lazy answer. "He's serious! Did you know Aunt Mel asked Chaos about his lovelife!" She said. "Then?" I have no appetite for questions. "He said he was loyal to a woman since high school, even though the woman was rude, he didn't want to give up on her." Tsk! Not to aassume but it looks like it's me. But I don't care. "And another one! He said he wrote a song for the girl! But he hasn't released it yet because he said he wants the woman to first hear that song!" I gasped. Really? He was really wasting time. "You know Jill is someone like him to be chased by a woman so it's unlikely that there's no flirtation right now." "So you agree he's handsome?" "No! I'm not saying anything that he's handsome!" My defense. Nothing, right? "Nurse Sha knows, there's no problem if you admit it. We like Chaos a lot." "I don't know about you." "It's still obvious." He was still pissed but I just shook my head. I heard his voice again when Jill played the Moonstone songs again. I admit, Chaos voice was relaxing and cold. You will really be moved by his beautiful voice but that's all I think. "I will chase you 'til it takes forever, Oh girl..." Jill sang along with the song. I got up and went to Thirdy's room. I caught him playing lego on his bed. "Thirdy!" I'm happy to great, he quickly turned around. "Nurse Sha!" He responded happily so I approached him. I did my usual routine every morning with him. "Close your eyes and everything will be alright." I smiled, When I finished, I sat in the empty seat next to him. I noticed a new lego on his table. "Did your mommy buy it?" I asked while holding the lego box. "No, brother gave that to me." My forehead wrinkled, when I found out that Thirdy was only a child. "Brother?" "Yes, he's such a kind nurse. And he told me not to tell you his name." He smiled at what he said. The boy was even taught to lie! But even so, I'm still grateful to him. It was obvious on the child's face that he was happy. I stroked Thirdy's hair who was playing happily. "Nurse Sha?" "Yes?" "Can we go outside please? I want to smell some fresh air. Besides, it's been a long time since I went out." I'm sad, he can go out but he doesn't say just now. So I nodded my head. "Thank you!" He responded happily, I helped him sit in a wheelchair and adjusted his dextrose. When it was over, I started to take him out, we were just in the garden of the hospital and he couldn't be taken out right outside. There are also many patients here in the garden, and mostly children like him also have cancer. "Wow! There are so many kids here!" I smiled at his happy tone. "If I could just walk and run like her." At the same time, he taught the girl who was running and she seemed to be playing with his sick brother. "You can walk too Thirdy I know." When I encouraged him, his knees weakened and he could not stand for a long time. I was surprised when someone came in front of us in a black jacket and mask, he was carrying a black briefcase. It looks like I already know him. just by the smell of his perfume! "Chaos!" Poor but somewhere. "Brother! its ---" he immediately stopped Thirdy from speaking and winked at the child. So Thirdy kept quiet, what is this nonsense again? "Hey butternut." I was immediately taken a back. Butternut his face! "What's that function again?"
I asked as he knelt down and opened what he was carrying. He looked at to me and I was the one he winked at. Ew! When he got what he was going to take, he stood up, I frowned when I saw it was a rainbow handkerchief. "What is that?" I asked but instead of answering me he focused on Thirdy. "Hey kiddo do you want magic?" What the fck? "Yes please! I want I want!" Thirdy replied happily, he looked up at me. "Are you crazy already?" "Crazy for You." I was stunned again by this man's answer. Then he started, as if he forced the handkerchief to stand up and he did after a while he squeezed it and then it turned into candy? The candy like umbrella? That big? Just that one! "Wow!" At the same time, Thirdy applauded, the boy was happy with the stupidity of what he did. After a while, he squeezed it again and for a while, he turned his back on us to show that there was no deceit or there was something behind him, then he turned around again, he presented the rainbow cane to us again and placed it behind him. He counted Thirdy from one to three and later he took his hand out from behind him and the cane was gone. What the? I looked below him but nothing fell, I looked at him confused. My eyes widened when he took something behind my ear. It was Rose flower. "Is great!" He nodded again before giving it to Thirdy. "I will give it to Nurse Sha," Thirdy motioned for me to bow, so I bowed and he pressed the rose to my ear. "You look pretty Nurse Sha!" Thirdy said cheerfully. "As always." I turn my gaze on Chaos, amazed at the looks thrown at it. I don't know but I averted my eyes. "Brother watch too!" "Is that magic?!" "I wanna watch magic!" I was surprised at how many kids were around us. I could see in Chaos's face that he was suddenly nervous. What are you now?! I wanted to laugh at his reaction but I remained quiet. "Yes brother! I want more please!" Thirdy's request, even the nurses on duty were already around. even though you can't see Chaos' face, it's obvious that they are still thrilled. Tsk! "Yeah handsome, show us your magic!" I glared at the screaming nurse, if I'm the manigician I inject her tongue? That's why I saw Chaos start doing magic. It's good that no one notices him. After his supposed magic, we sent Thirdy back to the room, yes he came because Thirdy wanted him. Even though I didn't want to, I didn't do anything. After a while, I arranged for Thirdy to lie down and he quickly fell asleep. Maybe because he's tired, I just hope he's not too tired. I neatly arranged Thirdy's blanket I looked to Chaos' side, who was just quietly watching to me. The hood of his jacket is down and the mask is gone, no one can see him here. "You should go home now." I said to him. "Are you not let me send you home?" He asked sadly. "Yes." I answer quickly. "Ouch! That's hurt." I just stared. Even though I was reluctant to sit next to him, I sat next to him, the idiot smiled and seemed to be still happy. "Aren't you doing anything? Why are you always here Chaos?" "Because you're here." He answered quickly. "Lame reason." "It's so true." I feel like it's just because he's staring at me, so somehow I'm misunderstood. "Staring is rude Chaos." "But staring at your face is good." I was beaten again. Gosh! "Can you stop me! Don't make me one of your women!" "Who said you're one of my girls?" He said seriously. "You were the only woman in my life." He added then suddenly I felt weird inside my chest. Damn! Don't you say you're affected by what he said Shaina? Dont believe in him! He's just playing with you! Men are cheaters! He's just like your father Sha! Wake up! "You're out of Chaos." I said coldly. "I like you Shaina..." I froze, shaking my head. "I don't like you Chaos, so leave now." I didn't look at him. When I felt that he wasn't moving yet, I went to the door myself and went out, I just went back to Thirdy. Then I felt a grip on my arms. Gosh! We're out and he's not wearing his hood and his mask! Maybe someone will see him! "Chaos what! Let me go!" I tried to remove his grip. I was confused when I heard footsteps but before I could appeal he pulled me to an empty storage room, a dark room. I saw two nurses pass by. But I was even more nervous when I leaned against the wall while he was in front of me and our faces were so close to each other. He was just looking straight at my face. He's panting while looking on my lips? I saw his lips pitying as well. I tried to get away but he was just stronger because of it. "Chaos what! Let me go!" But he was just looking into my eyes. "Sha..." His bedroom voice, maybe if another woman hear it they're shaking but I'm different from everyone else. "What! Let me go!" I try to break free from him. "Why are you always pushing me away?" Weak but enough for me to hear. "I don't have to explain to you so let me go." "Tell me please..." "Do you want the truth?" I asked boldly, I saw him nod. "I don't like you, I don't like people like you. So if you can just stop me and don't ever show your face again." I said hard, I felt he was weakened by what I said so I grabbed this as a chance to get away from him and get out quickly. You're doing right, Sha. "Sister are you alright?" Sherina asked, I'm here now at Aunt Amanda's house. We are currently in Sherina"s living room while aunt Amanda is cooking. I just nodded my head. "You were silent earlier." "I'm fine, don't you have to pay for school?" I will ask. "There's no sister aside from our field trip that aunts has already paid for." "Why is Auntie paying?" "She just said she was." She shrugged her shoulders. I picked up my phone and texted Alyana that I might come home at night. "So how was your day Shaina?" Aunt Amanda asked as we were eating. "It's okay, aunt." "That's good, you know I was glad when your sister told you to have dinner here. Even though you were hectic in the hospital." Aunt said happily. "I always have time for you and Sherina aunt." I smiled, my aunt told me a lot about Sherina's grades, I found out that Sherina might be the Valedictorian of their school. That's why I'm happy, she really comes from school. Auntie even told that Sherina's lover with different faces often comes here. Like me having a boyfriend is also not Sherina"s priority. Dinner ended and I was about to leave the house to get in the car when my phone suddenly rang. It was Chaos. I took a deep breath but I didn't answer, it just kept ringing. It's almost 10 in the evening, there are so many stories from my aunt so I spent the night. I shook as I opened my car, the call died but later it rang again. I let go again and started the engine. The call still did not stop, so I did not act first and disgustedly answered "Sha..." He said when I answered the call. Wait, is he drunk? I remained silent. "I know you're there Sha, you answered my call finally!" Then he chuckled. I know he's drunk, I'm closing my eyes. "Sha... Do you know I was hurt by what you said earlier?" I bit my lip. "Fck! It hurts so much! You know the feeling that I'm alive but I feel like when you come I'm dead." I don't answer, I also don't know myself and I can't turn off his call. "I don't know myself why I keep coming back to you even though you've pushed me away a few times." I tightened my grip on the steering wheel. "How many times have you pushed me away but I always found myself coming back from you." "How many times have I told myself that I should stop my feelings for you but my heart is just naughty and you are still the one it is looking for." "You're drunk Chaos." "I hope I'm just drunk, Sha." I can feel in his voice how he is hurting now. I was silent, I had nothing else to say to him. "Sha... I love you....Chaos that's right let's go home!" I heard a man's voice, as if suppressing Chaos. "No! I won't go home Zyle! Give me back my phone damn it!" I heard Chaos. "Chaos you're drunk."Zyle said. I didn't wait for Chaos to answer and I dropped the call. I'm not affected. You're not affected, Shaina... You're not! To be continued...