Chapter 18

I was busy cleaning our pool, when suddenly my phone rang on the bench on the side.

I put the net on the floor first and approached my phone.

It was Kathleen.

"Hello?" I wiped my clothes with my hands at the same time. I took my towel and wiped the sweat off my forehead.

"Sha !!" I put my phone away from my ear because of Kath's scream.

"What the hell ?! Kath!"

"Gurl! What are you up to later?" I immediately frowned.

"What's up?"

"Moonstone has a mall tour in Davao! They also have a fan signing for the release of their new album, right? I posted that on the page." He promised, of course I forgot.

"Yes, let's just meet later. What time is it?"

"About 4 to start but we only need about 1 ok fans?"

"Okay." Then I hang up the phone. I really insist that being a supporter of a Chaos Walterson, life is really playful. The opposite is happening, if I used to be the one who insulted and chased after him but here and now I am doing such a thing.

I sat down for a while to rest, I thought again to browse my instagram account, I only have 50+ followers including my friends and the members of Moonstone.

I also check every day if Chaos is posting, but it's still the same and he still doesn't have a post.

I was scrolling through my newsfeed when suddenly I saw Diana's post, she's with the Moonstone and she's in the middle with them. They look happy together, I see Chaos's arm wrapped around Diana's shoulder, and he is smiling widely. I bit my lip when I felt my heart aching.

@sandovaldiana: Let's be happy together, forever assholes!

I saw Diana's caption. He just posted this one hour ago but immediately earned 100k likes and 5k comments. I saw Arkuss's comment.

@Arkuss017: Moonstone's princess.

I smiled hard, I was happy that they were happy. So I decided to hide my phone and stand up.

I still have a few hours before dawn. It was only eight o'clock in the morning and it seemed that my housemates were still asleep.

I caught Danica and Joy in the living room when I entered the house. Joy is eating manga while Danica is on her cellphone.

I went over to them and sat down,

"Are you still awake?" Joy asked when I sat down next to her, she was very good at chewing on her manga. The witch is actually conceiving.

"Yeah, I cleaned the pool."

"Oh okay, by the way you're leaving later?" He asked again.

"Yes about 12, why?"

"Can you buy me dried mangoes please?" Then he made puppy eyes.

"I can't look for her son's father." I looked at Nica, I saw Joy's eyes narrow and she threw a mango at her.

"Wow! You emote emote jaan! You don't have jowa either!" Joy sighed.

"Atleast I'm not pregnant." At the same time Danica's tongue.

"Just look! I won't take you godmother!"

"As if I want to be that mother!" I laughed at both. They both stopped when they saw me laughing.

"A-are you r-really laughing ?!" Nica's eyes widened and she approached. Oh shit! Here we go again, I'm not really used to them like that now.

"Is there anyone who isn't laughing?"

"Yes, you!" My forehead furrowed when they were really together.

"Anyways, how's your income with Bright?" Nica suddenly asked.

"Tsk, the snout." I answer.

"You're rude too." I looked at Joy badly but she just signed peace.

"I don't know and that one became rude, it wasn't before when I was in high school. Keij was just rude then ----" but Nica immediately stopped talking.

"Who's Keij?" Joy asked, though I was nacurious too. We haven't heard that Nica has a boyfriend other than Jacob who just turned her on like that.

Nica is also a mysterious person, my friends and I rarely talk about problems.

There are many who flirt with Nica and most of them are just capable of life and look proud but I just don't know why she still doesn't want to.

"Ahm w-nothing." Then he just smiled, I heard from Marial Alyana back then. Nica, a childhood friend, is said to be waiting for someone to return. I just don't know if that's true.

"You're still hiding, who is that? Tell me your story!" Then Joy approached Nica, even though I was far away from Nica I could see the sadness in her eyes.

"Keijan was my childhood friend." So true that.

"What happened? Where is he now?"

"I don't know. Since gumraduate kame in highschool I haven't heard from him." Then he shrugged.

"Have you been?" Nica's eyes widened. "No!"

"Do you love?" Joy's carving.

"No!"

"Not supposed to but affected too much!"

I got up and went straight to my room, Alyana and I. I miss that bruhildang. No one is always naughty with me in the room.

I looked at her clean bed. It's been empty for a few months. Suddenly, a memory came in. I can see the figure of Chaos sitting on my bed.

The night he came here, he apologized but I just sent him away.

Hays.

Why is life so complicated? I don"t know but I feel like God"s favorite who always hurts. When I'm ready to love, then the person I'm going to love leaves.

When I have given all my trust and when I am comfortable with someone then I will leave.

I AM now on my way to the mall tour that Kathleen said earlier. Actually, he texted me earlier about where I was. Fuck! Magaalauna na pala! That's why I drove even faster.

There was no problem because Kathleen already knew the tarps.

"Shaina! Come fast!" I turned to my left when I saw Kathleen who still looked breathless and approached to me.

"You're a nice gurl ah? But come on speed! Super rush!" I couldn't speak anymore because he pulled me away, even outside the mall there were a lot of people.

"But dont worry in front of us gurl!" Even Kathleen.

"Come on! Excuse me!" We huddled in the crowd to get to the front. I see a lot of fandom and there are tarpaulins and there are flowercrowns with pictures of Moonstone.

Position carcass forward on the side.

"Come quickly! I'll introduce you to the admins of the pages and groups."

"Guys, this is Shaina Perez, our new member!" Kathleen said enthusiastically, I saw that almost all of them were smiling at me.

"Hi Shaina! I'm Stella!"

"I'm Jenicka!"

"I'm Elsie."

"I'm Then!"

They introduced themselves a lot more and I shook hands with them. They are all friendly so I have nothing to worry about.

A few more hours before and finally it started and Moonstone was released.

"Wooooooah!"

"Chaossss my labs!"

"Moonstones! I love you!"

"Zyke you gave birth to me!"

"Zarius honey!"

He was the shout of the people, I immediately stopped screaming when I saw Chaos' smile again. He's smiling again. They wave to people, they just wear simple but Chaos is really more attractive to them.

"Hello guys !!!" Zyke greeted the mic, their instruments were already arranged on stage. I think they will sing very little. Because fan signing and they will just promote their album.

I saw Chaos turn around in my behavior and smile broadly with a wink, I blushed but it also disappeared immediately when I looked in front of me. There was an iron barrier in front of us and inside there was Diana standing with her thumbs up.

It was Diana.

Not for saken, I averted my eyes.

You can do it, Shaina ...

I just go along with what others are doing, I don't know anything about this so I think I'm doing it okay. I am very proud of him because he has come so far. I even saw fans of Chaos and Diana as well.

My chest aches at the twing they will shout their love team.

It's also as if we're being told that we don't really matter and that's all I will be in in Chaos' life.

"They're going to sign an album!" Tili is Kathleen.

"The case is that I know only ten people will be selected for the free album and meet and greet as well." Elsie's sad promise. Others agreed.

Moonstone is already seated, and the gay host picks up ten lucky fans.

Many raised their hands, even my companions hoped to be selected but I chose to look ahead and applaud the lucky ones who were chosen.

"To be different, I like those who don't raise their hands." Promise the host and get off the stage. "Save the last for the best ika nga!"

Syam na kase is selected. And I no longer expect to be selected. I can afford to buy their album, in case the feeling is really different when you are selected.

"I hope so, I hope so." I laughed when Kathleen and the rest of us stood up as if praying.

"There. I can see something! Ours is beautiful!" I was surprised when the gay man approached, I also saw on my side that my partner's eyes also widened.

Ohemgeee !!!

"You ate gurl! You're the last! Come quickly!" Teaching because of gay, I was suddenly nervous because all eyes were focused, I was still holding a tarp of Chaos. I turned my back in case the host just squinted.

"A-me?" At the same time I taught myself.

"Of course! Come on!" He laughed,

"Ohemgeee! Go Sha! You're lucky!" Kathleen said and they pushed me to the front.

"Sana all !!!"

Trembling as I approached the front, the two guards opened the iron and let me pass.

I saw the host smiling at me.

My chest was pounding so hard especially when I saw Moonstone on stage that I was surprised to see him again. Gosh!

Am I still shy? I saw Diana standing up when she saw me too.

I can also see the surprise on the face of their manager Kim. No matter how strong all the people are, the atmosphere here on stage is so quiet.

I saw him staring at me blankly, it was dark.

Cold.

He doesn't seem to know me.

How many times have I heard from him that he doesn't know me?

I could see Diana's frown from here.

"Fuck." I couldn't help but hear Arkuss's cheapness, they were stunned and tired of what was happening and I knew that.

I saw Chaos writing something but I ignored it.

Like the previous ones they have already got the album and signed with moonstone members. Pictured and also got cute freebies.

When I finally heard them whisper one by one saken.

"Sha, what the fuck are you doing ?!" Zyle whispered loudly.

I can't even understand what the gay host is saying.

"Shaina, you can get our album for free." Zyke said.

"Of course you shouldn't have bothered." Arkuss.

"It's okay what are you. Just sign please?" They didn't do anything but sign when Chaos and I were honest, if it was really deadly, I'd probably be dead now. I tried to be firm in front of him.

When he finished signing, he handed me the saken, I was surprised as if there was a piece of paper on the back.

"T-thank you." But he just ignored that, they all stood up to take a picture together.

As much as Chaos will ignore, I'm still really me.

I don't know but I feel like I'm going to fall the moment our arms touch.

I couldn't stand it anymore so I would have fallen because of the trembling of my knees but I felt the arms holding my waist.

"Careful." He harvested cold.

So I just nodded and we settled down.

"Read my note." Her command.

"Later." He did not answer.

When everything was down, I went to my companions. They surrounded me and Kathleen took the album as well as the freebies.

"Gurl! Your luck is annoying you!" As they look at the album.

"Gurl how to be u?" I laughed at Yna.

"Ahm hold on first ah? I'll just ccr."

"All right, we'll just wait for you at Mcdo, is it okay?" I nodded.

Moonstone is currently saying goodbye so I turned around to go cr. I held on tightly to the role Chaos had given me.

When I went inside, there were only a few people.

"Meet me at parking lot, wait me there."

That's all it says, I don't know but I suddenly felt happy.

What does he mean I'll talk to you about it?

I tidied up first before finally getting out and going to the parking lot. Bahala na.

I waited a few more minutes, when I finally saw that they had me hiding on the side. Chaos seems to be saying something to them.

Chaos's kiss on Diana's forehead didn't go unnoticed.

It really hurts.

I thought he was saying goodbye, everyone got in the van, I saw Chaos waving at the departing van so I thought of going out and showing up with him.

I looked around first to see if anyone was there but thank you and there was none.

He still looked cold when he finally saw me. When I approached him, he was pulling me. I felt the tightness of his grip on my arm.

"C-chaos ... M-it hurts." But he seemed deaf and still pulled me.

Why can't I shout at him now?

Why can't I push him now?

Why do I just let him do what he's doing?

I held back the tears that would well up in my eyes.

You shouldn't be weak now, Shaina.

He led me to the side of the parking lot and firmly locked me against the wall.

He was panting and clenching his jaw.

"Ahhhh!" I screamed when he punched the wall. I couldn't help but cry.

It's not you, Chaos.

"Putangina!" Another blow and he turned around, the impact was so strong, I was shaking, I looked at the wall he punched and I saw there was blood.

I was scared when he confronted me, he seemed to be eating now. I would have liked to back down if I had been glued to the wall.

"Why do you want to torture me ?! What the fuck were you doing ?! Do you think everything is that easy ?!" He shouted.

"Please, Chaos ...."

"Not Shain. You're stupid. You're going to make me look stupid again." He stopped. I could see nothing else in his eyes. I can feel his anger.

"Putangina. How many times have you hit me but fuck! You're still throbbing!" At the same time, he pointed to his chest where his heart was.

"I love you, Chaos." Out of sudden, I suddenly said. I saw he was surprised.

"A-what did you say?" He asked weakly, now I can see his tears.

"The s-I said m-I love you. M-I love you so much." I tried touching his face but he shivered away because of it.

He laughed sarcastically.

"Tangina." He laughs shaking. He grabbed her by the jaw.

"Chaos I said -----" I didn't continue when he violently kissed me. He was kissing me harshly! He doesn't kiss me anymore but he eats my lips. It hurts, it hurts so much. And I really feel that the blood I don't think came from my lips.

I tried to struggle but he wouldn't let me. I tried to push him but he just grabbed both my hands and lifted them to my side.

I have lost all my strength, I will also run out of breath.

Why are you like that?

Why are you doing this for me?

I just let him do what he wanted to do but a violent hand pulled Saken away from Chaos, and he unleashed a strong blow on Chaos causing it to fall.

"Fuck you!" I was shocked when I heard his voice, I already knew him behind him.

My knees are shaking.

I do not know what to do.

I saw Chaos stand up and wipe the blood off the side of his lip.

Bright came over and grabbed both my arms.

"Are you okay?" Her voice was cold but worried. He was panting too, I nodded trembling.

"Hmm, are you?" We looked the same as Chaos who seemed to be teasing.

Bright didn't speak and just held my hand.

I saw Chaos glance at it and his jaw tightened even more.

"Mahal pala ah? Fuck your love!" Chaos shouted and then left, I would have chased if only Bright had stopped me.

"Enough Shaina! Wake up! That man is already hurting you -----" I didn't hear anything else he would say when my world suddenly turned around.

And everything went black.

I WAS OVERWHELMED when I felt like my head was being squeezed and I could still feel the pain in my body. My forehead furrowed when I noticed I was not at home, and I was in a very elegant and very nice room.

Is this what they call a penthouse? It's good. But erase! Why am I even here? What am I doing here ?!

I leaned back in bed, trying to remember everything that had happened. I still have clothes.

"You're awake." The door opened and Architect Bright was released.

"A-what are you doing here ?!" I was confused by the question. He approached the side of the bed and crossed his arms. It was just seriously standing and staring at Saken.

"Tsk. This is my room, then you're asking me why am I here?" I looked away. But what am I doing here? It hasn't sunk into my brain yet.

"B-but why am I h-here?"

"You didn't remember what happened yesterday?" My eyes got bigger.

Y-yesterday ?!

"Yesterday ?! Why yesterday ?! Does that mean I slept here ?!"

He just shook his head as if he couldn't believe what I was saying.

"Hey I'm asking you!" Paanoy suddenly turned around and took something from the bed side table. I touched the hem of his shirt. But I immediately let him go when he turned around and sat down next to me. I grew because I was counted.

"Drink this." I looked at the medicine he handed me and one of his hands with a glass of water.

I frowned.

"W-I'm not in pain. W-why should I drink that?"

"Drink this first, then I will tell you everything. More art." I was stunned by the last thing he said so I did nothing but take it and drink it.

I missed it because he was looking at me while taking the medicine, he took the glass again and put it on the table.

"S-so what happened, Architect?" I will ask.

"Call me, Migo." He said, I sighed.

"You said let's be professional together? What happened to that?" I said sarcastically.

But that's how dark his face is, I can even see myself from him. That's how I used to look when I was also rude. But an unfair one? For him, why do I feel like any angle of his face is still like a pogi ?!

Oh fuck ?! Why do I think that ?!

"Tsk. We're not working." His harvest was rude.

"Okay, so what happened Migo?" I saw him stop for a moment when I mentioned his name.

Wait, why call him Migo? Eh, almost the others called Bright, even Danica.

"You collapsed on parking lot yesterday and ..."

"And?"

"You were with the vocalist of Moonstone."

I was dazzled.

And little by little, what happened came to my mind.

I'm at the mall,

They were with Kathleen.

I was taken up the stage.

The moonstone is pictured.

Chaos gave me a letter.

We met in the parking lot.

Then ....

He kissed me ...

"Do you remember?" I looked at him, I nodded slowly.

"What were you two doing there?"

"No, the question is what were you doing there? Why were you there?" I asked him again.

"I was on my way home, I was going to get in my car that time. Then I saw a man seems like harassing a girl, so I went then out of the blue. I just realized that it was you."

But I remember he punched Chaos.

"B-why did you punch him?" Then he pointed at my lips.

What?

"He was kissing you harshly." I blushed at what he said so I looked away.

"I think he misinterpreted between us, so he walked out. You would have followed him then suddenly you lost consciousness. So I decided to take you here because I panicked, I didn't know what to do. You see, I'm an architect and not a doctor besides I dont know where you live. " He explained.

He was right again.

"I just sent a doctor, the doctor said you were just stressed so you collapsed. Maybe it was because you were so scared. And you have a cut on your lips too." I bit my lip.

I guess, it's Chaos fault.

He was like someone else yesterday. I wonder why he did that, why did he kiss me.

"But don't worry, I've already taken the medicine."

"Thank you, Migo." He just nodded and stood up, he was about to leave but I asked.

"You're not going to ask me what happened that day?"

"No, I guess its confidential." I just nodded, he was already holding the door knob when he spoke again.

"But I'm ready to listen if you want." I couldn't speak until he came out.

He also pretended to be rude but in fact he was kind.

I looked at the couch near the bed, I saw my bag here so I stood up to pick it up and check my phone.

Maybe my friends are already looking for me.

And I'm not mistaken that they have a lot of text.

My eyes widened even more when I saw what time it was.

Damn! 12:05 in the afternoon! And that's when I heard the sound of my tyan.

I no longer read the texts and was in a hurry to fix it.

When I put on my sandals, the door suddenly opened and Migo spat.

"Why don't you eat first?"

"Ahm no thanks, I -----" I bowed when I heard my stomach growl again. And he seems to have heard.

"Looks like stomach can't lie."

"Come out, I cooked. You haven't eaten since last night." I just nodded and followed him out.

I'll take away my pride first because I'm really hungry.

I caught him setting the table, I was even hungrier when I smelled how fragrant what was on the table.

I peeked a little and saw that he was cooking a lot. My eyes widened.

It looks really delicious!

It was too late when I realized that Migo was staring at me, salivating at what he had cooked.

The madman smiled as he leaned against the refrigerator.

"Sit down, you look really hungry." I stared at him and just sat across from him.

Someone was already on the plate in front of me, I looked at him when I saw there was milk mixed.

"Is it because of it?"

"Yeah." I don't milk, I even prefer coffee. But because he made an effort, I'll just drink it.

"Thank you." He nodded and we sat down.

Sunny side up eggs, bacon, hotdog and tocino are on the table.

"Why did you cook so much?"

"I'm with someone, so I don't know if you eat strong." I don't know if I'm offended by what he said or not.

"I'm not strong at eating!"

But he just shrugged his shoulders and started spooning fried rice, yes there is also.

We were just eating quietly, when his phone suddenly lit up as if someone was calling.

"Excuse me." He said after drinking water first, I nodded and he stood up to the door of his dining room.

He was sobbing while his hand holding a cellphone was in his ear.

"Yes, cancel my meeting with Mr. Tzu. I can't come in today. Yes, thank you." That's all I heard and he came back.

Is it because of saken?

"You're busy today, why didn't you come in?" I will ask.

"What time is it. I've only just been absent."

Suddenly I felt guilty.

"B-but you should have just woken me up earlier." He dropped the cutlery and looked at Saken.

"It's not your fault okay? Dont blame yourself. It's my choice anyway." I took a deep breath and then nodded.

"THANK YOU, Migo." I'm ashamed to promise, how could he even bring me here to our house. I refused a few times but he was really naughty so I just let him go.

"B-maybe you want to come in first?"

"It's okay." Then he shook his head, I nodded and opened the door of his car.

But I stopped when he grabbed my arm.

"B-why?"

"Don't stress yourself too much, I put your medicine inside your bag. Please drink it on time, will you?" I looked at his hand holding my arm.

"Okay, thank you. Be careful." I smiled, he just nodded. I got out and waved to his car away.

When I entered the house my friends were lined up in the living room.

‘Explain yourself" as if to say on their face.

I just shook my head and approached them.

"Who delivered you today ?!"

"Where were you from last night ?!"

"Why aren't you answering our call and text ?!"

"Do you know we're worried about you ?!"

"Who was with you last night ?!"

I don"t know who and what I will answer to them first.

But I'm really happy that they were so worried about you, Nashville was right. There are still people who always nanjan saken.

After I explained to them, they understood me and then they all hugged me. Then they let me sleep.

At six o'clock in the afternoon I woke up to go down,

I caught Rhea mopping the floor and Jayrose wiping the table.

"There oh my god! That's a nice song!" Rhea said and her music got even louder.

I was on the second floor of the stairs when I heard the lyrics.

"Did it help when I walked away?
Isn't that what you want?
Since then, even until now
All the way back to you. "

I'm not familiar with the song, but the moment I heard the lyrics I seemed to feel pain in my chest. I only hear or listen to music once in a while but sometimes I don't relate to the song.

Did I really want to? Why when he disappeared then I realized everything?

"That line really hurts!" I heard Rhea harvest.

"Someday you will see
'No need to stay away
If only evacuation was the way
Sorry, goodbye
No matter where you are. "

I slowly descended, compassionately listening to the music. The two haven"t noticed me yet. I would have planned to go to the pool.

"Is there still what I dreamed of
That I gave up to be formed?
Why is that? Everywhere you look
All the way back to you

Someday you will see
'No need to stay away
If only evacuation was the way
Sorry, sorry
No matter where you are. "

I never finished and went out completely, as the garden and pool were clean.

I wiped the tears from the king's eyes again.

When will we stop crying?

I was held in both my arms when I felt the coolness of the breeze.

When will I be happy?

When will happiness eat away at my sadness?

Will the day come when I will be happy?

I try to make up or fill in the missing saken.

But why is it that whatever I try is still not enough?

There is always something missing.

I sat on the bench, I looked at the sky because it was so dark and a drop of water dripped from my eye.

Until the rain finally increased.

I close my eyes when I can't feel my feet leave my seat.

It's like I just want to measure that moment.

Then suddenly, I smiled.

Just like the sky without stars, there is no moon.

As if my only month was gone.

I was caught in the necklace he gave me,

Please, come back.

Chaos, come back please.

I burst into tears when I saw a figure of a man standing at our gate.

T-is this true ?!

He's dripping wet too.

Even though he is far away, I can see how dark his face is.

I slowly stood up.

And also slowly approached him.

He just waited for me to approach him.

When I was finally in front of him I caressed his cheek, he let me do that. He was just looking at what I was doing.

This is not a dream.

Because he is really in front of me.

"Chaos ...."

Then I felt his soft lips landed on mine.

To be continued...