Chapter 14

　　It's morning now. I didn't sleep the whole night, I just stayed awake. I got up from the ground and left. Finally I arrived in the city. Suddenly I felt my stomach hurt and wanted to vomit. I quickly ran into a corner and vomited. I think because I didn't eat dinner. Urghh... but before I could go away I felt dizzy at the same time my vision turned dark. 　　I couldn't remember anything that happened to me after that dizziness. The only thing I knew was I'm in the hospital. I tried to get up from the bed as the doctor came in, 　　"Please don't move, your body is too weak." I stopped as he said. 　　"You should be responsible for your health because there's a baby growing inside of you. Please take your Meals properly." The doctor left. What did he just say? A baby.... am I pregnant?... Did I hear it wrong? I quickly looked at the nurse who was arranging my medicine. 　　"Excuse me, am I really pregnant?" I asked her, then she looked at me with a smile. 　　"Yes, congratulations." What ? No.... How? 　　"If you want more details about your baby. You should do a pregnancy test and they will give you the report. Rest now." What should I do now? I don't understand. I placed my hand in my stomach and I felt so happy because I'm going to be a mother and the baby in my belly is Kayden's child. I always wanted to be happy with him, with our children but at the same time I felt fear. What if he rejects the baby? I was really scared...but I'll definitely give birth to the baby. I don't care if Kayden agrees with me or not... 　　................... 　　~ Kayden ~ 　　I just fucking left Delilah in that abounded area and I didn't even go back to get her. She was just with James. I don't know how many times he fucked her.. I was so fucking angry. I left her on the road because I knew if I let her stay with me I'll just hurt her even more so I left her there, in darkness. Urgh... it's morning, I knew Delilah would come home by herself, so I waited for her but she never showed up. Fear took over me as I remembered how she cried. I shouldn't wait for her, I should just go and check. When I was about to go I saw grandma was watching news. My heart filled with horror after I heard it. A dead body was found in the area that I left Delilah, the dead woman was raped by several men. My body was trembling as I saw the news on TV. I don't believe.....it's not my Delilah.. I quickly ran to my car and drove to that area. Police were already there and didn't let me go in. I was really scared, just scared to death. FUCK. What did I do? What the fuck did I do to my Del? I started to pull my hair roughly because I wanted to feel the pain. 　　I called home and asked if Delilah came home but aunty Mary told that she didn't come home. My mind was just restless, crying for Delilah to be okay. I pulled my hair again as hard as I could but I couldn't feel the pain because my heart aches more than that. I had to take her with me, she cried as she said that she loves me. I don't know what happened to me. I regret.. I fucking regret.. if anything happened to her I don't know what to do or how to let go. Fuck... I drove to the hospital because she was injured but didn't find her.. I wanted to believe that she's not the dead woman that the news showed . I asked several people if they saw Delilah, but to my disappointment no one has seen her. I just couldn't give up. So I again went to a small hospital and showed Delilah's picture as I asked about her. Finally... 　　"Yes, sir she's in 19 room." A nurse told me as I sighed. I quickly went to the hospital room. I saw Delilah, she was staring out of the window as she rested her hands in her stomach. Her hands were also injured as she had bandages on it. Her face was pale and lips were swollen. I regret doing this to her. I wanted to hug her and I was sorry but I didn't have courage to go in and do it, so I forced myself to go in. As soon as I entered she looked up at me, the guilt took over me as she smiled. After everything she's still smiling at me. 　　"Disappointed? Because I'm still alive." Her words stabbed straight to my heart, her smile made me wanted to kill myself but before I could say anything the doctor came in. 　　"Are you Delilah's family member?" Doctor asked as I nodded. 　　"Great. You can take her home now but make sure to give her nutrition because it's very important for the baby's health." What baby? What the fuck?. 　　"Doctor.. the baby?" I finally managed to ask as I looked at Delilah's face. 　　"Yes, she's pregnant. Make sure to take care of her health." With that doctor left. She's pregnant? With fucking James's baby...ha.. Why did I just worry about her? 　　"Happy to have James's baby?" I asked her with my angry tone. She suddenly looked at me with her disbelief eyes. 　　"No.. it's ....your baby." Ha.. my baby? I was fucking away for a month now she's telling me this is my baby.. did she think I'm a fool? 　　"Shut the fuck up Delilah.... I'm not a fucking fool." I said as I left the room. I don't care, if she wants to come home she should just come by herself. Why do I have to care about her? I looked back and I saw Delilah was crying as she buried her face against her palms. I couldn't control my anger... she's fucking pregnant....and the baby is not mine. It's fucking James's baby. Ha...very well Delilah go on.