Chapter 11

　　I know I shouldn't hurt her like that but I just hate her, I lost my parents because of her and she also made me fall in love with her. I actually didn't want to love her but without knowing day by day my love just increased. I couldn't say anything, my words didn't come out of my mouth after I heard what she told me. She was correct about everything. Her tears and her broken voice were all because of me. She loved me, and I also loved her more than she could ever imagine. Urghh..shit. 　　I suddenly heard my phone ringing, so I came back to my senses. I didn't know... Delilah was not in front of me anymore; she just left. I answered the call. 　　"I'm back.." fuck... That voice. I recognized it. 　　"Axel? Is it really you?" I asked with a surprise voice. Axel was my fucking best friend. He went to Canada three years ago and now he's back. 　　"Yeah, it's me. Just fucking come to airport. I'm starving." I quickly grabbed my keys and left. As soon as I reached the airport I saw him. It's been three years. I stopped the car and got off. 　　"Damn.....Kayn... you look like a whore." Axel started to laugh. Fuck I didn't even comb my hair. I was a mess. 　　"Yeah I'm a whore but you are a gigolo..l et's go" with that we left while I was driving Axel brought painful memories back. 　　"How's your little bride? I bet she's fucking beautiful now. Am I right Kayn?" Beautiful? She's just beyond that. 　　"Yeah, gorgeous." I found myself smiling as I remembered Delilah's pretty smile. 　　"Fuck..you're in love with her? I knew it from the beginning, from the way you looked at her." Yeah, I fucking loved her from the beginning. 　　"Just don't hurt her Kayn.......just don't do things to hurt her, like you did to her on her 18th birthday" her 18th birthday? It was the day that my heart filled with fear, she was hit by a car in front of my eyes, it was because I did something wrong, something that hurt her to run away.... but the thing I did was a fake....why would I just marry someone over my little bride? I just wanted to hurt her. As soon as she ran away I also ran after her but I was too late... 　　"Just forget the hatred Kayn.. you love her and she also loves you. Just be happy with her.. before someone could snatch her from you." I was just listening to him. I was really scared, what if James could make her fall in love with him. I was really scared to face it. With those thoughts I came home with Axel. 　　"I'll arrange room for you." I said as I got out of the car. 　　"I'm only staying for one day... I've already bought an apartment but still have some things to finish, so I'll leave tomorrow." Axel winked at me as he threw his bags to me. Then he entered the house. 　　"Axel? My boy. You came back.." my grandma was the first one who hugged him and kissed his head. 　　"Grandma did you miss me? I know Kayden is not as good as me, so I'm sorry for leaving you." Fucking drama queen. He knows how to act as a good man in front of everyone. 　　"Yeah yeah, you're the best." Grandma patted his back. What the fuck? 　　"So how have you been Axel?" Grandma chatted with Axel about their lives. 　　I wanted to check on Delilah so I went upstairs. I stopped in front of her door and the door was locked but I heard some noises from her room. My heart filled with horror. I tried to break the lock but I couldn't so I ran to my room and grabbed the spare key for her room. I always kept one for her room. My heart was beating fast as I opened the door. I entered her room and she wasn't on her bed. I heard water sounds. I knew she was in her bathroom but I didn't want to go in because it's her privacy but again I heard the same sound. I quickly opened the bathroom door. I froze. There was blood on the floor, I could feel my heart start to hurt me. I quickly went in and looked and then I saw Delilah, I think she had fallen down and couldn't get up. Her feet were bleeding and she was naked. Her body was filled with my bite marks. I felt sharp pain through my chest because this was all my doings. Then she suddenly looked up at me. 　　"What... what do you want?" She asked me. I examined her eyes for a few seconds but her eyes weren't sparkling, they were just dead. I couldn't take it anymore because in the past every time she saw me her eyes began to sparkle. She was shy to see me and her eyes always showed me her love that she had for me but now those eyes are empty. No sparkles and no love. The fear of losing her took control of my body. 　　"Kayden...just go away" Delilah again spoke. I just didn't want to leave her. 　　"No..." with that I bent down and picked her up. She wrapped her arms around my neck as she looked away. 　　"Why are you helping me now? Do I look that pitiful?" She asked with a smile. I didn't reply to her and placed her in the bathtub. Then I took off my shirt. 　　"Are we having sex again?" Delilah's words made me stop my actions. She was looking at me with her beautiful but dead eyes. 　　"No..let me wash you" I was really honest because I didn't want to do anything to her. 　　"Just go away Kayden... I don't need your charity. Do you even care if I die here? Answer is no....you don't care so just leave me alone." I was hurt.. really hurt because of her words but I care....I care more than anyone in this world but I just couldn't let her know. 　　"I... care Delilah.....I always care." Suddenly my voice came. I looked at Delilah, she was stunned then she started to cry. I made her cry again. 　　"Why? You don't. I know it." With that she looked away. I knew that she wouldn't believe me. I wanted to comfort her more but I didn't have courage for it. So without telling me anything I started to wash her with warm water. She never looked at me as I washed her. After I was done I lifted her up and wrapped a towel around her and took her into the bedroom. She was so silent all the time. I opened her closet and took comfortable clothes for her and dressed her up. She was just so cute, she was looking away all the time. I dried her hair and looked at her. She was like a doll so pretty and I wore my shirt again.